A very difficult time.
Posted: Sun Jul 25, 2010 4:45 pm
Like many on this site I'm sure, I am having a very difficult time. Although I overcame depression back in 2007 following a relationship breakup, my life recently has become to much really to take.
I'm 25 years old, and have been told following a long going on, that I am probably going to serve some custodial time following a horrific event early April. So on the first level, I am extremely scared as I have never even been told off for littering up until this event. My only refuge for 'safety' (as it was the first time depression hit) was my family home. Unfortunately, my parents whom offer me so much security, are embroiled in a very unhappy time where arguments are common place, meaning my 'safety' zone is now more of a warzone than of comfort.
Due to the onset of my depression, I had to leave my Uni course 2 months from finishing it, so I now have no qualification, I am too unhappy to properly function, and opinions on my appearance due are only getting worse and worse. Basically, I feel like every angle of my life is imploding. Th true friends I do have are all with their partners, and a 'friend' who I believed was close to me has turned his back on me completely, in favour of money (a long story).
I apologise if I am mumbling on about things, and I know certain aspects of my story cannot change. Yet all the strength I believed I held after overcoming depression before has disappeared. I feel I have nothing anymore. Before April, I had the world at my fingertips, now I have nothing to look forward to other than time inside, for something that my solicitor describes as not my fault.
So that's me. I am excited to join this forum, as I have nowhere to turn anymore, and nowhere to go.
Thanks for listening/reading.
Mark x
I'm 25 years old, and have been told following a long going on, that I am probably going to serve some custodial time following a horrific event early April. So on the first level, I am extremely scared as I have never even been told off for littering up until this event. My only refuge for 'safety' (as it was the first time depression hit) was my family home. Unfortunately, my parents whom offer me so much security, are embroiled in a very unhappy time where arguments are common place, meaning my 'safety' zone is now more of a warzone than of comfort.
Due to the onset of my depression, I had to leave my Uni course 2 months from finishing it, so I now have no qualification, I am too unhappy to properly function, and opinions on my appearance due are only getting worse and worse. Basically, I feel like every angle of my life is imploding. Th true friends I do have are all with their partners, and a 'friend' who I believed was close to me has turned his back on me completely, in favour of money (a long story).
I apologise if I am mumbling on about things, and I know certain aspects of my story cannot change. Yet all the strength I believed I held after overcoming depression before has disappeared. I feel I have nothing anymore. Before April, I had the world at my fingertips, now I have nothing to look forward to other than time inside, for something that my solicitor describes as not my fault.
So that's me. I am excited to join this forum, as I have nowhere to turn anymore, and nowhere to go.
Thanks for listening/reading.
Mark x
