My story
Posted: Thu May 27, 2010 9:30 am
Hey all,
Well, it all started a few years ago, me and my family decided we'd had enough of the busy lifestyle, we hardly ever seen each other and life was rather stressful, so we moved to the south of france.
Life out there was good to an extent, but I lived in the middle of nowhere, and when at school I had trouble communicating with everyone because of the language barrier (i'm fluent in french now), so I had no social life, and I feel this has had a very big effect on me.
I'm lonely, very lonely, and this is just half the problem, I'm a teenager, most people i'm around have a girlfriend, they may not "love" each other but it's always good to have that special someone. Yet again that isn't the main part of my depression you see, I'm gay, And I'm still in the closet, no one knows that i'm gay, and I just haven't been able to tell them, me and my parents have a very good relationship, but i always keep things from me, I don't moan when I'm ill or anything, I suffer alone, I have no idea why I don't talk to those around me about these things, something just stops me.
So we recently moved back to the UK, as my sister has had a baby, Due to the fact it's the end of the school year, we didn't think it was necessary for me to go back to school for a few weeks, so I'm pretty much alone all day.
I have little to no self confidence, I have facebook but i've never once sent a friend request on there, because I'm too paranoid about being rejected, I'm lonely, I feel like a complete waste of space, I hate myself, And as much as I'd like support, I've got none.
Thanks for reading,
Mike.
Well, it all started a few years ago, me and my family decided we'd had enough of the busy lifestyle, we hardly ever seen each other and life was rather stressful, so we moved to the south of france.
Life out there was good to an extent, but I lived in the middle of nowhere, and when at school I had trouble communicating with everyone because of the language barrier (i'm fluent in french now), so I had no social life, and I feel this has had a very big effect on me.
I'm lonely, very lonely, and this is just half the problem, I'm a teenager, most people i'm around have a girlfriend, they may not "love" each other but it's always good to have that special someone. Yet again that isn't the main part of my depression you see, I'm gay, And I'm still in the closet, no one knows that i'm gay, and I just haven't been able to tell them, me and my parents have a very good relationship, but i always keep things from me, I don't moan when I'm ill or anything, I suffer alone, I have no idea why I don't talk to those around me about these things, something just stops me.
So we recently moved back to the UK, as my sister has had a baby, Due to the fact it's the end of the school year, we didn't think it was necessary for me to go back to school for a few weeks, so I'm pretty much alone all day.
I have little to no self confidence, I have facebook but i've never once sent a friend request on there, because I'm too paranoid about being rejected, I'm lonely, I feel like a complete waste of space, I hate myself, And as much as I'd like support, I've got none.
Thanks for reading,
Mike.