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hi everybody ,i just wanted to talk a little more about the visitor ,you know its a big part of my life as ive said before always at my side ,well thats not entirley true ,beacause it does stand just about anywere ,emm im in a little tool cupboard in the house now and it is stood in the back garden watching me through the back door ,,i know when im gonna have a bad attack because this dark figure become really visible ,and if im only feeling a little low it can be seen through ,,it lays at my side when im typing here in bed ,and when fran comes in to sleep it stands at my side of the bed ,,it knows no phycycal barriers ,and will pass through walls etc
it cannot harm me by touch it can only talk to me in my mind ,and it does quiet often try to destroy me ,,i talk to it in my mind very often cursing it and asking why this is happening ,but nothing , its face is just darkness a never ending abyss of nothingness ,it wears a long shroud ,that rests on the ground ,it has hands like a human ,but they are not always present ,it does not gesture to me or speak ,only in my mind do i get my threats
it does look like death ,you know how the figure death is gloryfied in so many horror films ,but yes i would say it looks very simaler ,i have and would not ever try to touch it ,this dark creature is 1 half of me and i fear that contact would make me all the visitor ,,depression personifeid forever
ive told it that i will take it to the grave ,and that i cannot let it carry on in our world to take another innocent victim ,,again no answer ,i intend to live a very long time ,and it will travel this dusty highway with me ,
is it real you may ask ,well im not going to say its my imagination and its the way i cope ,because it is part of my life so yes it is real to me ,but it wont hurt you ,if it were to get to close i would turn and walk away ,it can never be allowed to harm family or freinds ,,am i crazy i dont know you be the judge of that ,,dont forget ,the visitor in my depression has given me the gift of compassion and kindness ,and thats the weapons and tools i use to convey my kind words ,no im not crazy ,,,,,keep well my dear freinds hugs ken xxxxxx coming soon more titles in this informative saga
THE WARRIOR ,,,,,,

THE WARRIOR like the visitor appears to me when im normally really down ,when the visitor has me and i feel like the end maybe imminent ,the
WARRIOR APPEARS ,and the will to carry on ,flows through my veins like
the very blood that make me able to live ,,so it is the will itself ,the VISITOR is my deppression .AS THE WARRIOR is the part of my mind that must survive and stay free ,if the warrior is ever slain in this life long battle ,i may be overcome by the visitor ,and the silence that would follow
could mark ,the end of the ken you know so we,ll .and i may become depression itself ,unable to see any light ,if this were to happen ,i would have to withdraw forever as i could not allow the visitor to be able to reach out ,and touch my dear freinds ,with its poison ,,but even now the
WARRIOR STANDS AT MY SIDE ,but im not in pain ,so why is here here
he will appear when i need help ,and he is all powerful ,he will strike the visitor down ,enableing to rest and gain my strentgh so i can carry on
but today he is my gaurdian ,summond pherhaps because i fear attack from the visitor ,as i have felt happy these last few days ,,maybe the warrior is appearing to the visitor letting it know his presance ,and that he will intervene ,if i am threatened ,,the visitor can be struck down ,but it does regenerate ,but even it must know fear ,,the WARRIOR feels nothing
of fear ,or pain ,,he is my allie as are all of you my dear freinds ,,,,,
so never fear for the WARRIOR is within me ,and i will always be here
If you should find you stumble on this road we travel together ,just call out and myself ,and the WARRIOR will steady you on your way ,,,,
stay safe my freinds ,,we are all as one ,powerful we are ,
ALL WARRIORS IN OUR OWN WAY ,,,,HUGS FOR NOW KEN ,AND THE WARRIOR,,,,,XXXXX