My life
Posted: Mon Nov 23, 2009 3:37 am
I am Terilyn. I am 22 years old now. I started having bad problems with depression at 17 and was diagnosed with depression then. I didn't want to be put on any medication at the time and spoke with a counselor for a few sessions. Right now I can't afford a counselor or I probably would be seeing one.
My situation with my family is very rough. I was always considered very smart and made straight As though out high school. I would be punished and screamed at, etc. every time I made lower than an A, even if it was on a 5 point quiz. They have always been very critical of me. After I moved out of the house things had gotten better with my family but have recently worsened again.
I am currently 5'3 and weigh 304 pounds. 3 years ago I weighed 156 pounds at my heaviest. I gained all of my weight quickly and while exercising and eating healthy. It has since been determined that I have insulin resistance and a thyroid problem and medications are helping me lose the weight. My family however, thinks I sit at home and eat ice cream while watching TV all day. My mom still makes comments like this and she comes into the doctor with me.
Today was the worst and is what made me search out these forums. I am at my aunt's house because I am helping take care of my mom who broke her knee cap. This is on my much looked forward to break from school that I really needed. I have been very stressed out lately and feeling like I am falling into depression again. Then today's situation happened. I sat down on my aunt's sofa and it creaked. My family freaked out. They yelled and cussed at me for a very long time. I have also been told that I am no longer allowed to sit on any furniture in the house other than the hard backed wooden kitchen chair or I can sit on the floor. They told me if I loose 100 pounds I can sit on the sofa again. My heart just cracked. This happened several hours ago and I can't seem to even stop crying to look at the situation. I went back in the room with them and asked to sit and was refused and then cussed out for crying. I know I should just brush this off but I can't seem too. Everything is just hitting me and I don't know what to do.
My situation with my family is very rough. I was always considered very smart and made straight As though out high school. I would be punished and screamed at, etc. every time I made lower than an A, even if it was on a 5 point quiz. They have always been very critical of me. After I moved out of the house things had gotten better with my family but have recently worsened again.
I am currently 5'3 and weigh 304 pounds. 3 years ago I weighed 156 pounds at my heaviest. I gained all of my weight quickly and while exercising and eating healthy. It has since been determined that I have insulin resistance and a thyroid problem and medications are helping me lose the weight. My family however, thinks I sit at home and eat ice cream while watching TV all day. My mom still makes comments like this and she comes into the doctor with me.
Today was the worst and is what made me search out these forums. I am at my aunt's house because I am helping take care of my mom who broke her knee cap. This is on my much looked forward to break from school that I really needed. I have been very stressed out lately and feeling like I am falling into depression again. Then today's situation happened. I sat down on my aunt's sofa and it creaked. My family freaked out. They yelled and cussed at me for a very long time. I have also been told that I am no longer allowed to sit on any furniture in the house other than the hard backed wooden kitchen chair or I can sit on the floor. They told me if I loose 100 pounds I can sit on the sofa again. My heart just cracked. This happened several hours ago and I can't seem to even stop crying to look at the situation. I went back in the room with them and asked to sit and was refused and then cussed out for crying. I know I should just brush this off but I can't seem too. Everything is just hitting me and I don't know what to do.