I am nothing ,alone/goodnight
Posted: Mon Nov 02, 2009 3:18 pm
i have,nt been here for a while ,but i found the way in ok .
theres nothing in here no floor ceiling or walls ,
i cant see its so dark ,but i feel my way around ,its cold here ,
not freezing ,but no warmth.i move a little further and feel ,around
ah yes the visitor is here always here .but im not afraid in here ,
it has no power here and can only watch ,no threats or nasty replays.
i can only come here when i feel absolute sadness,and lonelyness,as i
do now .i must find
my way to the place were i can lay alone covered in the calm protective
cover of my own sadness i move a little further,carefully so not to disturb
anything ,in this place witch has no begining and no end ,no boundries ,
yet it is full of so many lost feelings,dreams that started when i was a child
but never ended ,mixed with nightmares and transformed into unmensionable horrors
witch will only end when the flow of electrical impulses cease to light my brain ,
not far now ,i can feel him now ,he wont wake even though he knows im here .
for russ is in his time still ,in his small bed in the bedroom in the house ,
he would destroy in years to come .i lay down on the bed now ,so close but ,
so many years apart,i dare look towards the door and the visitor is there just
as it apeared all those years ago ,and i thought it was my nana watching over me .
poor innocent child ,will russ die with me ,or will he lay here forever.
im at peace now ,when sadness consumes me like this it makes me numb and i dont care .
so watch me now dark sentinal ,while i lay with russ and the blanket of sadness you
sent to hurt me covers my broken body while i rest, for in sorrow i am free,
i will rise in the morning to your gift of pain ,but when the sadness comes calling ,
i will rest again ,xn728,russ goodbye ,goodnight my dear dear freinds onika warmie girl
,,,,,,,,,,,,ken
theres nothing in here no floor ceiling or walls ,
i cant see its so dark ,but i feel my way around ,its cold here ,
not freezing ,but no warmth.i move a little further and feel ,around
ah yes the visitor is here always here .but im not afraid in here ,
it has no power here and can only watch ,no threats or nasty replays.
i can only come here when i feel absolute sadness,and lonelyness,as i
do now .i must find
my way to the place were i can lay alone covered in the calm protective
cover of my own sadness i move a little further,carefully so not to disturb
anything ,in this place witch has no begining and no end ,no boundries ,
yet it is full of so many lost feelings,dreams that started when i was a child
but never ended ,mixed with nightmares and transformed into unmensionable horrors
witch will only end when the flow of electrical impulses cease to light my brain ,
not far now ,i can feel him now ,he wont wake even though he knows im here .
for russ is in his time still ,in his small bed in the bedroom in the house ,
he would destroy in years to come .i lay down on the bed now ,so close but ,
so many years apart,i dare look towards the door and the visitor is there just
as it apeared all those years ago ,and i thought it was my nana watching over me .
poor innocent child ,will russ die with me ,or will he lay here forever.
im at peace now ,when sadness consumes me like this it makes me numb and i dont care .
so watch me now dark sentinal ,while i lay with russ and the blanket of sadness you
sent to hurt me covers my broken body while i rest, for in sorrow i am free,
i will rise in the morning to your gift of pain ,but when the sadness comes calling ,
i will rest again ,xn728,russ goodbye ,goodnight my dear dear freinds onika warmie girl
,,,,,,,,,,,,ken