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YOU KNOW GUYS I FELT OK THIS MORNING ,I WAS ENJOYING THE RAIN AND WIND ,
I WAS SAT IN THE SHED IN A GARDEN CHAIR AND JUST WENT AWAY SOMEWERE ,MAYBE I DROPPED OFF I DONT KNOW
BUT WHEN I CAME OUT OF MY TRANCE I FELT JUST EMPTY,AND ALONE ,I TRYED TO LOOK ON THE FORUM
EVERYTIME I GOT ON ,ONE OF THE FAMILY WOULD BURST IN ,WOULD HAVE TO CLICK IT OFF,
THAT PUT ME IN A LAPTOP SMASHING MOOD ,EVERYTHING I HAVE TO HIDE ,WHAT A BLOODY FUTILE EXISTANCE ,
THE FERRETS HAVE MORE PRIVACY THAN I DO ,I BUTTED THE WALL IN THE COALHOUSE IN ANGER ,
NOW IVE GOT A SODDING MIGRANE ,FEEL I DONT KNOW ,JUST DONT CARE ANYMORE I JUST DONT GET,IT
I KNOW I MADE MISTAKES BUT IM A GOOD KIND BLOKE ,IF I HAD MY YAPPH NOW ,I,D STAMP ON IT
DONT FEEL LIKE BOTHERING MUCH JUST NOW ,TAKEN MORE KAPAKES THAN I SHOULD ,ILL BE ADDICTED SOON
EVEN THOUGHT ABOUGHT DRINKING TODAY ,IM SHUTTING DOWN NOW ,CANT SEE MUCH POINT IN STUFF JUST NOW
IT WILL COME WHEN I FINISH HERE ,IT SHOWED ME SOMETHING TERRIBLE,IN THE EARLY HOURS ,UPSET ME ALL DAY
YOU GOOD FREINDS OF MINE ,BE WELL AND I HOPE YOUR WELL, OR BETTER TOMMORROW,YOUR MESSAGES ARE NICE
GOODNIGHT ONCE MORE ,TAKE CARE EVERYONE ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,KEN

you said it yourself ken,you are a good kind bloke,hope your anger and distress have calmed down a bit today. maybe you should admit to your family more how you're feeling so you can have a bit more time and space of your own