WHAT A DAY ,I FELT SO LOW
Posted: Mon Oct 26, 2009 4:09 pm
HI my freinds ,i feel so drained today ,i thought i had upset someone ,and it has really knocked the stuffing out of me ,but its been resolved now and im starting to feel better ,i feel in future i will share my worries more and if i must share my pain ,so the same person i thought i had hurt has given me a gift ,a lesson i will remember ,ok thats done with ,
what about the picture then ,that really is me today ,im serious man
ive been trying to get pictures on here for ages ,and failed ,but now ive cracked it ,this could keep me happy for hours ,im gonna build up a picture mood library ,you,ll all be sick of me by the time im finished
i really do think a lot of you guys ,you know ,im gonna keep my head above water so hopefully i wont have to go ,the visitor is very strong and he could reach out and hurt someone ,i wonder if the things i write about my self scare anyone ,i was in the garden today tidying up the leaves ,there was a thud behind me ,i looked around to see a large creature not to disimilar to the picture here but with no face ,it just sat there heaving around ,i turned away for a few seconds and looked again
nothing ,what a fantastic thing the depression has given me ,some things i see are horrific creatures but i enjoy them i would even say they leave me awe struck ,and powerful ,in time of stress i wish i could unleash them
to warn away the things that hurt me ,im not mad ,the depression that destroys me has given me a wonderful mind and the way i use it keeps me sane ,if i couldent share these strange visions with you then there would be no point in being here ,ive been called terrible things but never here ,time yet though lol,,another thing ,men never seem to answer my posts or replys mmmm,,,,,,,,,i dont get any privicy at home ,when i try and post i can have spent an hr typing something and someone will come in and i have to log off and lose everthing ,this is very frustrating ,but its the way it is ,fran doesnt like to be alone ,i understand that
so goodnight for now im tired tommorrow will be better
night all night .onika warmie
what about the picture then ,that really is me today ,im serious man
ive been trying to get pictures on here for ages ,and failed ,but now ive cracked it ,this could keep me happy for hours ,im gonna build up a picture mood library ,you,ll all be sick of me by the time im finished
i really do think a lot of you guys ,you know ,im gonna keep my head above water so hopefully i wont have to go ,the visitor is very strong and he could reach out and hurt someone ,i wonder if the things i write about my self scare anyone ,i was in the garden today tidying up the leaves ,there was a thud behind me ,i looked around to see a large creature not to disimilar to the picture here but with no face ,it just sat there heaving around ,i turned away for a few seconds and looked again
nothing ,what a fantastic thing the depression has given me ,some things i see are horrific creatures but i enjoy them i would even say they leave me awe struck ,and powerful ,in time of stress i wish i could unleash them
to warn away the things that hurt me ,im not mad ,the depression that destroys me has given me a wonderful mind and the way i use it keeps me sane ,if i couldent share these strange visions with you then there would be no point in being here ,ive been called terrible things but never here ,time yet though lol,,another thing ,men never seem to answer my posts or replys mmmm,,,,,,,,,i dont get any privicy at home ,when i try and post i can have spent an hr typing something and someone will come in and i have to log off and lose everthing ,this is very frustrating ,but its the way it is ,fran doesnt like to be alone ,i understand that
so goodnight for now im tired tommorrow will be better
night all night .onika warmie
