the crazy one strikes again

[xn728]

sorry everyone ,ive made certain references to me not being here and your worried ,i have a very fragile existance ,and as today ive had a lot of fighting within myself ,anger and fear ,wanting to hurt myself ,not phsyhicly but wanting to punish myself ,i had a breackdown a while ago and left the forum for about 4 mnths ,without a word ,i was just laying the path just in case ,the visitor got the better of me ,im fine dont worry
my mind is very active always trying to keep me going ,the pain i see in here hurts so much ,its no,ones fault ,just doesn,t seem fair and it makes me angry ,so angry i could run away ,i may post some references to fran as well dont let these worry anyone ,these will be things i want to say but cant ,,,,,you,ll all understand the things you say are all very kind ,and i dont plan on going anywere ,,xn728 ken ,,im tired i take those lithium soon and have an early night ,,,,,,later all xn

[Mich]

I am so glad to read that you don't plan on going anywhere. I truly hope you had a good rest last night and that things are looking and feeling better today.

[crystalgaze]

How are you Ken? ((((Ken)))))

[xn728]

thanks for your concern everyone ,sorry to have worried you ,ive had a rest today ,time to reflect , i.ll be around later im ok , ,thanks again
my freinds ,,,,,,,,KEN