strictly in confidence i wont tell,

[xn728]

whats it like for you ,ive read so many stories,but you know ive never met anyone in person who suffers from the visitor ,whats it like ,do you live your live and feel a little sad sometimes ,do you manage to balance the good with the bad .does the sun make youu happy and the cold make you sad .what about me .thats easy the desolation is with me night and day and i live what small life i have left around the depprestion .the lithium woke me from the gabbage state i was in for a lot of years .it keeps my wings level as i fly through my existance ,but i always fear the wings may dip ,up and i would burn up and be consumed by the fire always raging in my mind ,or dip down and pludge into the darkness were the visitor waits for me to make that wrong step and i become lost forever ,i just wondered you know ,im not gripeing here ,i feel ok just now ,happy to be posting again ,when i deleted my posts ,i thought i would have lost my freinds .but these are the wild things i do ,still im trying to make up for it now .i dont expect answers to the thing i asked i just needed to say it ,when i go to the head doctors place there are usally four or five people in there before me ,and they seem happy ,yet im sat there like satan even the doctor looks at me as though to say oh crap not him again ,,anyway thanks and im sorry for being a little crazy .

i read a little siqn in the cbt room it said
today is the tommorrow you worryed about yesterday and its fine
Oh give me a break please
,,,,,xn728 ken

[Mich]

The desolation is with me night and day too. I wish it didn't have to be that way for you. I am glad that the lithium helps somewhat. I am wishing you some brightness in your day today.

[xn728]

i have had many bad days in all these years ,i have had many lessons in pain ,and have learnt a lot ,things will get easier for you eventuly .just keep going .and talk to your many freinds on here
xn728