Now this is a story how my life got flipped upside down...

[Abomination]

And I liked to take a minute
Just sit right there
I'll tell you how I became the prince of a town called Bel Air.


Sorry, it had to be done. Anyways I'm 19 year old fella from Finland. Got depressed about 4-5 years ago when couple of close relatives died, parents divorced, started at new school, lost my friends. The new school gave me alot of pressure and I found a way to make myself feel better...by cutting. I never heard anyone else do it, didn't realize it's quite common. Then my mother saw the scars after I managed to hide em for few months, i broke down and she called school shrink. After that I been in therapy+anti-depressants. I did try to kill myself once, but obviously that didn't quite work out.

Fast-forwarding to present day...I've moved out of my parents place into a new city. Started college here again to finish my studies. Thinks went fine, but then my girlfriend of 4 years decided she wants to break up. Found another fella. Anyway i'm pretty much in a situation that I dont have any friends left, noone to talk too. Not even shrink untill about two weeks. I've thought alot about suicide again, but dont think my parents deserve it. I saw how crushed they were after last time I tried it.

My computer is broken too, i'm writing this on my parents comp right now. I'm visiting my mom's place for the weekend and off to school again tomorrow to the new city.

[aim]

Abombination... that's so much on your poor shoulders! But you are right... your parents do not deserve to lose you, ok? I wish I had the magic words to tell you that everything is going to get better, because I can guarantee that it will.

Stick around, Abombination, ok? School means people means new friends!

Will your parents buy you a new computer?

[Abomination]

Thanks for the reply. I'm feeling lil bit better actually. Far as the comp goes, I sent it to the insurance company and they'll fix it up. Though it's been gone for 3 weeks already...

[aim]

See Abombination! Things do work out with some time, right? I guess that means everything will work out with time too, huh? Hm... something for me to think about too!

I know not having a computer is frustrating - I went without one more than once for extended periods of time. But you can get on at school, right? I used to go the public library! That was a pain, but I got through it.

Everything will fall into place for you, Abombination... promise.

((((Abombination))))