PLEASE FIND MY LETTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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PLEASE FIND MY LETTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Postby Aurelia5 » Wed May 20, 2009 8:55 pm

Not to be repetitious, but you know how there are those guys that work for the cops that can retrieve things out of a computer that have been deleted? They say nothing in a computer is ever really deleted, unless they wipe the disc. Well, is there one of those guys where you work or someone you can call that works in your tech room or whatever? Information Services, they're usually called. They're the go-to guys for technical problems. And why did it want me to log in again when I hit Preview? Clearly a malfunction. An infuriating malfunction.

It was on this thread, to Ken at around 5:30pm mountain time, 8ish eastern time, and it was long. I'd REALLY appreciate it if you could just ask around.

Thanks. I won't bug you any more.

A5

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Postby Monty » Thu May 21, 2009 11:55 am

Wish I could answer your question Aurelia, but I am the one that looks forward to my kid's coming, then I give them my long liste of mechanical, electronic, compter things to fix.

I had just noted that you hadn't been posting lately and wanted to let you know that I missed your advice on matters that home come up.

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i am that man i think ,if ken is xn728

Postby xn728 » Thu May 21, 2009 3:17 pm

if itS me you were writing to Aurelia ,then its ok ,no need for words ,as long as i saw your name on here ,thats fine ,missed you ,i am bad just now ,angry and destructive ,doc has given me some CYMBALTA,DULOXOTINE ,he says im going into meltdown ,because i tried to hard not to be depressed ,and when it did,nt work the dissapiontment was to much and i over reacted ,hes going to fix me up with a counceler,
hope we are freinds i dont know what happened ,there was a big mix up somewere ,IT WAS A COMMENT MADE ON AN UNRELATED SITE ,IM GONNA TELL YOU ABOUT ANOTHER ONE ,SO PLEASE THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU OK, I WAS SENT A PRIVATE MESSAGE LAST NIGHT ON THE OTHER SITE I USE ,IT WAS FROM SOMEONE WHO SAID THAT THEY WERE A MUSLUM AND THEY TOLD ME (I HAVE READ YOUR STORYS AND I THINK YOU ARE THE DEVIL ,AND YOU NEED TO BE EXORSICED) I HAVE CHECKED MY MAIL TODAY AND THERE IS ANOTHER ONE IN THE INBOX I WONDER WHAT THAT COULD BE ,any Aurelia my good friend hope your well im gonna see if amy has left anything for me and tell her about the events of today ,,all my best wishes KEN ,,,,,,,,,,,

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Postby Aurelia5 » Thu May 21, 2009 4:18 pm

Ken -

I wrote two letters. The first was to you, it was long, it was strong, and I went so far as to dig out my psych text books and look stuff up and then I hit PREVIEW to see how long it was getting and when I tried to go back, it was gone. Then I wrote another to Amy and that got lost too. I got so #^%%^*&(%^$ mad I wasn't going to bother with this site any more, but I like the people, so I took four hours to cool off and now I'm back, but I'm still mad at whoever designed this forum that it is so easy to lose a letter.

I was responding to your pre-meltdown of two days ago or thereabouts, and I told you about Cymbalta, which I take, and which has kept me from falling into unrecoverable despair over the terrible situation that is our life. I also told you about the difference between psychiatrists and psychologists (at least in the United States) and went on to tell you to find a psychologist, not a psychiatrist, and with Cognitive Therapy, specializing in depression, you can learn to think your way out of these mental messes your Visitor gets you into. I have a psychologist and he is a genius at this. I come out of his office saying WOW I never thought of it THAT way. Just a councelor won't do it. You need a person with a Ph.D in psychology that specializes in depression. If you don't have money, they will work with you. They aren't about to let you go out and kill yourself because their rates are too high.

But I said that you were in a seriously bad way and that the current medication and doctor were not working for you and you needed to make a change NOW. I'm glad that's what you did. The Cymbalta takes about 3-4 weeks to really work. My husband became so depressed by his life being taken away at such a young age, he actually scared me and I talked him into trying them. It worked like magic and now he's outwardly happy again, and I can tolerate our life again.

I'm going to stop now. Mostly because I don't believe in pressing my luck and also because you went and did everything I said in the lost letter. You should start feeling better in a couple of weeks, and instead of wallowing in your misery, you can revel in beauty.


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whoopy your back

Postby xn728 » Thu May 21, 2009 4:34 pm

hey you ,i can close my eyes now and rest ,i was worried about that stupid mix up thing ,we are friends forever ,i had another message from that other site i use ,i have posted it somewere in the threads ,,i still use the other site ,i have just one friend there and i cant abandon them for the sake of some idiot ,here is my home now ,i just visit the other one ,glad your ok , im a bit worried about taking more tablets but i know
i must ,,so glad to hear from you ,goodnight Aurelia see you tommorrow ,
reach out ,,,,ken ps i can never hear too much from any of you ,im getting a counceller too , oh yes dont leave the site , you will cause so much sadness ,ken ,,,,,,,,,,,,,

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Postby Aurelia5 » Thu May 21, 2009 7:39 pm

Ken my Dear -

Don't get excited - I call alot of . . . well, a few people that. That mixup thing had me going. I am so terribly afraid of saying things that come out badly that I don't mean. The people at my last job were bloodthirsty. They ran to the boss every time I said or did some typically 'me' thing. I have worked in that store three times since I was a teenager, and the current boss subconsciously engenders backstabbing loyalty from her staff. I've worked retail/customer service for 35 years and I can not come up with a more foul group of people that I worked with. And that store is the Rolls Royce of Santa Fe, New Mexico chic luxury item stores. It absolutely devastated me when they fired me - for being me. She said You say and do strange things. That's a quote. But I was a top sales person and the last time I worked there, that was what mattered. Anyway, enough about the store. And, mind you, this happened almost three years ago and I'm still obsessed by it.

I have'nt been able to work since then because of my startlingly rapid decline in health. I am now nearly on crutches because my knees are so bad, and my back keeps me from doing anything without substantial pain. It's a bummer - I liked getting all dressed up in velvet and silk and five pounds of jewelry and talking people into buying 40,000 dollars worth of Moldavi rugs. I'm serious. That was my last sale in the rug room the week they swung the ax. I'm bent because not only did I think I was doing great, but the pay and benefits there were phenominal for Santa Fe. We were RICH when I worked there. (Think of the four letter word that starts with f, and ends with k and enter it here, three times.

Give me that other site's address and the name of the a--hole that flamed you. I'll straighten him out so fast his head will spin. Tell that one friend to come over to this site and join us. We'll welcome him with open keyboards.

I am very surprised your doc didn't have you titrate down off the lithium before starting the Cymbalta.The half-life is 20-27 hours, so you're building and building it up in your system. The drug guide says that adding fluoxetine (Prozac), can increase the toxicity of the lithium. Cymbalta, like Prozac is an SSRI - Selective Seretonin Reuptake Inhibitor. Basically it keeps the seretonin floating around in your brain for a long time, theoretically making you feel better. But by now you have a huge amount of lithium in your system and I sure as heck wouldn't add the Cymbalta yet. Dose down on the lithium - half your dose for the next week, then a quarter for a week, then off it for a week. Then start the Cymbalta. It may be your doc has never had a problem giving Cymbalta to someone already on lithium, but I did lithium with Effexor and it nearly killed me. (I don't know how much you know about psychopharmicological drugs, so I'm writing this like a lesson, forgive me for insulting your knowlege if I did, but it may be that other people reading this might be interested).

We have another site we go to. Mostly my darling Brad goes there. It's a chronic pain site or drug site. It's called Pharmer.org. We got on because there was a shortage of oxycodone in town here and we wanted to know if it was the whole nation or just Santa Fe. The people on there spend a truly amazing amount of their lives comparing the different effects of manufacturers of the drugs they take. There was one new guy on there today that posted 5 times! yes 5 times, just on the differences between different makers of Percocet. Lord. JUST TAKE THE DAMN PILL AND SHUT UP ! But Brad identified him as OCD and the guy was so impressed by that, that he just loves Brad now and can't stop writing to him. So, if you're ever intersted in the effects of any drug, mostly pain killers, (maybe even psychodrugs), try that site. It's interesting to say the least. The people there (mostly males) are not sweet and nice like everybody here is, so just cruise it before you post. They are frequently getting yanked for saying rude stuff. You can tell it's just killing some of them to be polite.

But don't you worry. I would never just drop you, or Amy, or Monty in a fit of rage over the technical problems here. I was touched by Monty missing me. I like her a lot. We seem very similar. She, however, is lucky enough to have fine young family units that can whip her computer and other troublesome things in her house into shape.

Oh yeah. What's all this about Amy seeing you and your ferrets and you seeing her doggy? I'm jealous. How come I didn't get to see them? Bohoo. Are they posted in here somewhere? And am I right that this site is located in the UK? Poor Amy seems to always be posting in the middle of the night.

I'd better shut up. This is getting too long. But BOY AM I HAPPY YOU AND I SORTED OUT THAT MIXUP!!!!!!!!!!!!! You're my friend and I'm not going to drop you.

When you feel bad, look around for something nice and think about it. Today when I went for my excruciatingly painful walk, instead of thinking about a titanium knee, I looked at the tiny little purple flowers that just opened. I forgot about the knee.

Your friend and protector,
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Postby Aurelia5 » Thu May 21, 2009 7:39 pm

Ken my Dear -

Don't get excited - I call alot of . . . well, a few people that. That mixup thing had me going. I am so terribly afraid of saying things that come out badly that I don't mean. The people at my last job were bloodthirsty. They ran to the boss every time I said or did some typically 'me' thing. I have worked in that store three times since I was a teenager, and the current boss subconsciously engenders backstabbing loyalty from her staff. I've worked retail/customer service for 35 years and I can not come up with a more foul group of people that I worked with. And that store is the Rolls Royce of Santa Fe, New Mexico chic luxury item stores. It absolutely devastated me when they fired me - for being me. She said You say and do strange things. That's a quote. But I was a top sales person and the last time I worked there, that was what mattered. Anyway, enough about the store. And, mind you, this happened almost three years ago and I'm still obsessed by it.

I have'nt been able to work since then because of my startlingly rapid decline in health. I am now nearly on crutches because my knees are so bad, and my back keeps me from doing anything without substantial pain. It's a bummer - I liked getting all dressed up in velvet and silk and five pounds of jewelry and talking people into buying 40,000 dollars worth of Moldavi rugs. I'm serious. That was my last sale in the rug room the week they swung the ax. I'm bent because not only did I think I was doing great, but the pay and benefits there were phenominal for Santa Fe. We were RICH when I worked there. (Think of the four letter word that starts with f, and ends with k and enter it here, three times.

Give me that other site's address and the name of the a--hole that flamed you. I'll straighten him out so fast his head will spin. Tell that one friend to come over to this site and join us. We'll welcome him with open keyboards.

I am very surprised your doc didn't have you titrate down off the lithium before starting the Cymbalta.The half-life is 20-27 hours, so you're building and building it up in your system. The drug guide says that adding fluoxetine (Prozac), can increase the toxicity of the lithium. Cymbalta, like Prozac is an SSRI - Selective Seretonin Reuptake Inhibitor. Basically it keeps the seretonin floating around in your brain for a long time, theoretically making you feel better. But by now you have a huge amount of lithium in your system and I sure as heck wouldn't add the Cymbalta yet. Dose down on the lithium - half your dose for the next week, then a quarter for a week, then off it for a week. Then start the Cymbalta. It may be your doc has never had a problem giving Cymbalta to someone already on lithium, but I did lithium with Effexor and it nearly killed me. (I don't know how much you know about psychopharmicological drugs, so I'm writing this like a lesson, forgive me for insulting your knowlege if I did, but it may be that other people reading this might be interested).

We have another site we go to. Mostly my darling Brad goes there. It's a chronic pain site or drug site. It's called Pharmer.org. We got on because there was a shortage of oxycodone in town here and we wanted to know if it was the whole nation or just Santa Fe. The people on there spend a truly amazing amount of their lives comparing the different effects of manufacturers of the drugs they take. There was one new guy on there today that posted 5 times! yes 5 times, just on the differences between different makers of Percocet. Lord. JUST TAKE THE DAMN PILL AND SHUT UP ! But Brad identified him as OCD and the guy was so impressed by that, that he just loves Brad now and can't stop writing to him. So, if you're ever intersted in the effects of any drug, mostly pain killers, (maybe even psychodrugs), try that site. It's interesting to say the least. The people there (mostly males) are not sweet and nice like everybody here is, so just cruise it before you post. They are frequently getting yanked for saying rude stuff. You can tell it's just killing some of them to be polite.

But don't you worry. I would never just drop you, or Amy, or Monty in a fit of rage over the technical problems here. I was touched by Monty missing me. I like her a lot. We seem very similar. She, however, is lucky enough to have fine young family units that can whip her computer and other troublesome things in her house into shape.

Oh yeah. What's all this about Amy seeing you and your ferrets and you seeing her doggy? I'm jealous. How come I didn't get to see them? Bohoo. Are they posted in here somewhere? And am I right that this site is located in the UK? Poor Amy seems to always be posting in the middle of the night.

I'd better shut up. This is getting too long. But BOY AM I HAPPY YOU AND I SORTED OUT THAT MIXUP!!!!!!!!!!!!! You're my friend and I'm not going to drop you.

When you feel bad, look around for something nice and think about it. Today when I went for my excruciatingly painful walk, instead of thinking about a titanium knee, I looked at the tiny little purple flowers that just opened. I forgot about the knee.

Your friend and protector,
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Postby Aurelia5 » Thu May 21, 2009 7:42 pm

Look. Now it posted this letter twice. Son of a gun.


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twice as good then ,

Postby xn728 » Fri May 22, 2009 9:28 am

thanks for all that ,i dont usally come on this early but the tablet has made me drowsy so i came for a lay down ,2.30 pm here ,so im not stopping long ,you can see the photos ,there in the gallery at the top of the page under pets ,im on the front page ,and if you put dakota in the search it will bring up amys pic ,catch you later ,dont worry about the other site ,ive sent a very gritty email to this person ,i doubt if they will respond again ,i do have a wicked side to you know ,as they will have discovered ,best wishes till later ,,,,,KEN ps dont preview your postings you will lose them ,i have done this to ,,,,ken again

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feeling a little better

Postby xn728 » Fri May 22, 2009 2:31 pm

hey everybody ,im feeling a little better today ,i know it is not the tablets .working yet .they will take a few weeks ,its the fact that i have something to look forward to ,the councelling will help i hope ,hope you are all ok ,i have done some gardening today it was quite warm here today ,the new ferret is very viscious and i have to wear gloves ,but he,ll be ok i dont mind ,i hope you can find the photos aurelia, see you all later ,oh we have puppys at the rescue center i will try to post some photos over the weekend ,,,,,,best wishes KEN ,GOING TO AMYS THREAD NOW ,,,,,,,,,

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Postby Monty » Sat May 23, 2009 3:04 am

Aurelia, and Ken.

It has been good following your thread. Isn't it a kick in the pants, when you post messages and they end up somewhere in cyberspace, then somehow one gets posted twice.

Glad that we got a second copy of one of your last ones, instead of you having to try to type it all out again.

I had a really good day today. A friend of mine had an Earned Day Off today so we went off on a road trip. We left the city and drove off to a resort town that is near to the city, but still far enough away that you can actually hear the peace and quiet. Hope to be able to go out that way on a regular basis this summer.

I think that the last time that I went camping I was still a teenager. I have some friends that are planning on going out camping this summer. Not sure if I have just gotten too old to do that kind of thing anymore. I must admit that I like my electric bed, with the VCR/DVD player at the end of my bed. I suppose that it wouldn't be too tough to give it a chance for a weekend.

Hope things are going well with the two of you this weekend. I am not sure where you are from. I think that you are an American Aurelia. And that you are from the Uk, Ken.
Suppose then you would be having a long weekend. It is for Memorial Day isn't it Aurelia.

Holiday or not, enjoy your Monday's.

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thankyou monty

Postby xn728 » Sat May 23, 2009 3:00 pm

glad you had a nice trip ,lovely good ,i feel uhhhh, ken,,yorkshire uk
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Postby Aurelia5 » Sat May 23, 2009 3:00 pm

I can't write today. I am in too much physical pain. Maybe tomorrow.

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hi a

Postby xn728 » Sat May 23, 2009 3:26 pm

get well soon ,from a sicky feeling ken ,,,,,,later ,hi amy also if you look in .ps to both of you oh and monty im being sent private messages on the other forum all the time ,talking about god and exorsisams and other stuff
i have just not answered any back ,,ken

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Postby Monty » Sun May 24, 2009 12:15 am

Sorry that you are not feeling well Aurelia.

I have chronic insomnia. Today was our first real warm day of summer. I don't do the heat well at all and was foolish enough to work all morning on the cleanup of a local neighborhood. I stopped at noon-time but wasn't wearing a hat.

So much for the chronic insomnia, I fell asleep at 7:30. Didn't feel well either, but this is all my own fault should have known better. I have aches in parts of my body, that I didn't know existed.

Again, hope that you feel better soon. Enjoy reading your posts.


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