Is it wrong to feel happy?
Posted: Mon Jul 06, 2020 4:02 am
I am a nobody. That is to say that I am here to share my story and nothing else. I need/want help but it is not the right time for it yet. I am functional but, that is about it. I am horrible at grammar so stick with me.
I have been wanting to kill myself for more than 9 years now, but because of a single promise I made to myself I am still here. Honestly speaking I don't want to live anymore but, because of that promise I am still here. I don't know what to do with my life. Every time I think about anything important, It hurt. I am in pain just from writing this. I feel that I need to let other know I exist. I know that I am not the only one here with problem and I know it that other people have It worst then me. but why am I like this. I literally can't grow at a person because I don't want to think about anything else other than thing that distract me from my pain. Every time I Think about anything important it hurt then I feel nothing at all neither pain or sadness or happiness. With the numbness kicking I hope I was able to record the emotion that I feel before I feeling nothing at all. don't worry about my safety I won't kill myself. I just want I let my emotion out before it is gone. I am a nobody on the internet just like everybody. please don't try to help me for I can not help myself. Like I said, it not the right time yet.
Thank You to those who listen to this burner account and good bye
I have been wanting to kill myself for more than 9 years now, but because of a single promise I made to myself I am still here. Honestly speaking I don't want to live anymore but, because of that promise I am still here. I don't know what to do with my life. Every time I think about anything important, It hurt. I am in pain just from writing this. I feel that I need to let other know I exist. I know that I am not the only one here with problem and I know it that other people have It worst then me. but why am I like this. I literally can't grow at a person because I don't want to think about anything else other than thing that distract me from my pain. Every time I Think about anything important it hurt then I feel nothing at all neither pain or sadness or happiness. With the numbness kicking I hope I was able to record the emotion that I feel before I feeling nothing at all. don't worry about my safety I won't kill myself. I just want I let my emotion out before it is gone. I am a nobody on the internet just like everybody. please don't try to help me for I can not help myself. Like I said, it not the right time yet.
Thank You to those who listen to this burner account and good bye