Lost and lonely
Posted: Thu Jan 09, 2020 11:11 pm
Hello,
I suffered from PTSD for a while in 2015 and I still feel the impacts in my life. Every winter is so rough for me since that time. I constantly feel sad, lonely and hopeless. I lived with anxiety for a while and now I got some issues with my relationships.
I tell myself that people I know don't want to talk to me first or see me because I'm worthless. So... my self-esteem is very low. I'm introverted but I would like to know that people care about me sometimes. Also, I pushed away my best friend by being always negative. I fear rejection a lot. That's why I don't initiate anything with new people. I don't know how to start conversations either.
It's getting harder now because I moved from my hometown last summer for university. I regret my choice for some reasons. I got some options, but
none looks ideal. During my first semester, I lost control over my life. I drank a lot of alcohol in my lonely days and got bad grades because I stopped studying. I felt like doing nothing. I'm back at it after the christmas break and I still feel like doing nothing.
Sorry if my English is not perfect, this is not my main language.
Thank you and if anyone can relate or wants to reach out, feel free!
I suffered from PTSD for a while in 2015 and I still feel the impacts in my life. Every winter is so rough for me since that time. I constantly feel sad, lonely and hopeless. I lived with anxiety for a while and now I got some issues with my relationships.
I tell myself that people I know don't want to talk to me first or see me because I'm worthless. So... my self-esteem is very low. I'm introverted but I would like to know that people care about me sometimes. Also, I pushed away my best friend by being always negative. I fear rejection a lot. That's why I don't initiate anything with new people. I don't know how to start conversations either.
It's getting harder now because I moved from my hometown last summer for university. I regret my choice for some reasons. I got some options, but
none looks ideal. During my first semester, I lost control over my life. I drank a lot of alcohol in my lonely days and got bad grades because I stopped studying. I felt like doing nothing. I'm back at it after the christmas break and I still feel like doing nothing.
Sorry if my English is not perfect, this is not my main language.
Thank you and if anyone can relate or wants to reach out, feel free!