Trying to solve the root issue of my depression
Posted: Mon Jun 17, 2019 3:49 pm
Some quick background on me:
2 years ago I started to catch feelings for an old friend, when one night she snapchatted me and she was crying, I asked her what was wrong and she didn't want to tell me, which was odd because we had become close friends. I messaged one of her roommates the next day and told her to check on my friend, and when she did my friend was unconcious on her floor, they called 911 and she was taken to the hospital. When she woke up the doctor told her that if her roommate hadn't of checked on her for even just 2 more hours there was a high chance she wouldn't of survived (she had taken almost a whole bottle of sleeping pills). Her roommate then told me that she wouldn't of checked on her until much later in the day if I hadn't messaged her, and when I finally got to talk to my friend she told me that I was the one who had saved her life. After this she decided to take the following semester off of school, and a few months into that I asked her to dinner, even though I knew it was a long shot, she said yes and that it sounded perfect. But whenever I tried to set a date for it, she couldn't make it, then eventually she just didn't respond to me. Fast forward to now, it's been 2 years since she nearly died and I haven't even seen her since then, I care about her and I worry about her, and whenever she posts something thats slightly bad I throw myself into a panic attack, not knowing if she's okay or not. Every time she's back in town she texts me and tells me we have to hangout, but so far this summer she has blown me off 4 times now....and I don't understand why, not being able to see her is driving me crazy and fueling my depression. But I feel awkward about texting her and telling her this, but on the other hand I feel like I'm going to be a lot better mentally after I see her again....I guess I'm just looking for suggestions on what to do, I've tried to get over her multiple times but I just can't.
2 years ago I started to catch feelings for an old friend, when one night she snapchatted me and she was crying, I asked her what was wrong and she didn't want to tell me, which was odd because we had become close friends. I messaged one of her roommates the next day and told her to check on my friend, and when she did my friend was unconcious on her floor, they called 911 and she was taken to the hospital. When she woke up the doctor told her that if her roommate hadn't of checked on her for even just 2 more hours there was a high chance she wouldn't of survived (she had taken almost a whole bottle of sleeping pills). Her roommate then told me that she wouldn't of checked on her until much later in the day if I hadn't messaged her, and when I finally got to talk to my friend she told me that I was the one who had saved her life. After this she decided to take the following semester off of school, and a few months into that I asked her to dinner, even though I knew it was a long shot, she said yes and that it sounded perfect. But whenever I tried to set a date for it, she couldn't make it, then eventually she just didn't respond to me. Fast forward to now, it's been 2 years since she nearly died and I haven't even seen her since then, I care about her and I worry about her, and whenever she posts something thats slightly bad I throw myself into a panic attack, not knowing if she's okay or not. Every time she's back in town she texts me and tells me we have to hangout, but so far this summer she has blown me off 4 times now....and I don't understand why, not being able to see her is driving me crazy and fueling my depression. But I feel awkward about texting her and telling her this, but on the other hand I feel like I'm going to be a lot better mentally after I see her again....I guess I'm just looking for suggestions on what to do, I've tried to get over her multiple times but I just can't.