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LONELINESS

I hated the word ‘lonely' from the bottom of my heart.

Deep down, I know this is the truth, and I don’t need prove.

I have tried to open up, but no one seem to listen..

So I pulled a happy face instead, it is what people expect.

"I'm okay, really.” I said to my friends.




My sister told me, I am simply to young, and ignorant.

My friend told me, you do not look like you are depressed.

My family and friends did nothing wrong but loving me.

But is it the kind of love I need? I can have? I want?

“I’m doing better.” I said to my family and friends.




I have taken pills, trying to make things work.

I have given excuses, hoping the world would turn.

I have hold my anger, people might like me better.

I am bleeding both inside and out, but people just gon’ ignore.

“It is just a phase.” I said to myself.




I have told my friend we have been distanced, she said not to over-think.

I do not want to, but my anxiety does not seem to co-op.

My friends said I should go do stuff, but I can only see how scary people look.

People tell me there are worse, so I should just keep my shits to myself.

“I will be fine.” I said to myself.

Welcome aboard, friend.
I’m so sorry to hear you’re going through depression. I appreciate your willingness to share about your struggles. Life can be stressful and overwhelming at times. Are you seeing a therapist? A caring professional who would be in an excellent position to help you to cope with your difficulties. Do you have a support group nearby where you can connect with people regularly? I just said a prayer for you, and I hope that God will surround you with His loving presence and provide the comfort and help you need at this time. You can always share your heart out and I’m here to support you. Sending hugs & prayers your way!