Emotional Eating
Posted: Fri Jun 02, 2017 7:32 pm
Another all day binge today i lost count on how many times i have done this month.
Buying those healthy snacks did not help with my binge habit at all. I felt powerless when i was eating, and before i realize, i have finished the whole stock. I still inhale food, whether they are junk food or healthy food, like i've been starving all my life.
The truth is, i have been starving all my life. Starving for perfection. Perfect grades, perfect daughter, perfect body.
I read off the internet that I have emotional binge episodes, and I am well aware of that. I just dont know how to deal with my emotional problems. Whats worse is how im well aware that i know the answer, that i need to solve my perfectionism issues, but if i do so, i dont even know who i am anymore.
I'm completely lost, depressed, and sometimes i just feel like giving up. It feels like I have been fighting a battle that i am doomed to lose for these past years. I have tried sharing my feelings but there is just nobody i can trust enough to help me. My family just told me to stop eating too much and move on with their perfect lives. My friends would tell me to just eat whatever i want and dont care about the weight ive been gaining. If only it's that easy.
I used to cry after a day full of binge eating. Now, i just feel emotionally empty inside, even though i had just consumed the amount of food that can kerp me full for the whole week.
I need any support i can get. Please.
Buying those healthy snacks did not help with my binge habit at all. I felt powerless when i was eating, and before i realize, i have finished the whole stock. I still inhale food, whether they are junk food or healthy food, like i've been starving all my life.
The truth is, i have been starving all my life. Starving for perfection. Perfect grades, perfect daughter, perfect body.
I read off the internet that I have emotional binge episodes, and I am well aware of that. I just dont know how to deal with my emotional problems. Whats worse is how im well aware that i know the answer, that i need to solve my perfectionism issues, but if i do so, i dont even know who i am anymore.
I'm completely lost, depressed, and sometimes i just feel like giving up. It feels like I have been fighting a battle that i am doomed to lose for these past years. I have tried sharing my feelings but there is just nobody i can trust enough to help me. My family just told me to stop eating too much and move on with their perfect lives. My friends would tell me to just eat whatever i want and dont care about the weight ive been gaining. If only it's that easy.
I used to cry after a day full of binge eating. Now, i just feel emotionally empty inside, even though i had just consumed the amount of food that can kerp me full for the whole week.
I need any support i can get. Please.