I brought this on myself I guess.
Posted: Fri Jul 18, 2014 12:12 am
I did this to myself I suppose. About two months ago I broke up with the girl I am deeply in love with and someone I had been dating for a year and a half. I know it's stupid and cliche but I broke up with her because I needed to work on myself and be a better person for her. And for a while she begged me to come back and it was so hard to tell her no because I still needed to fix myself for her. Then one day I asked her back out but I did it in a crappy way and got rejected. But we started working on things in order to be together again and it was going good until I screwed it up by saying something stupid. Which she forgave me for. So we began working back to it again. This time we were closer than ever, she even said that she definitely wanted to date again but was scared about it and wanted just a little bit more time which I completely understood. So we decided to go on a date of sorts and it was awesome, and when we got back to her house we talked about our future and everything. (this is where the story gets kinda strange) As I was leaving her house I scraped against a tree in my truck. and her and her dad came outside to check on me and the truck. The truck was badly scraped up but I was fine. Then I said something to her that might have costed me everything. I said " Well you hit a tree in my yard looks like I did the same". As i turns out her father didn't know she had hit a tree in my yard and she had told him that the dent in her vehicle was from someone hitting it at work. Which this caused her dad to go ape shit and ground her for a long time (we're both 18). She was so mad at me for saying it and said she was done. but later texted me saying "I hope you didn't expect to see me before you go off to basic training, because I't that grounded". It should be noted that I am leaving for the military in 18 days. So her messages seemed like she was mad at me but wasn't done with me as it seemed like she wanted to see me but wasn't going to be allowed to. When I asked her if she hated me she said " I'm seriously pissed off at you, but I also wanted to make sure you were okay and alive, I don't hate you I'm just really mad". And I haven't heard from her since, this was yesterday. I'm hoping that her parent's just took her phone away and that she's not ignoring me. I know this is some teenage bullshit, that happens to everyone. But I just want some people to talk to as my friends are generally of no help to me. I'm just worried that I have lost her for good. She's all I can think about And all I want. This all just sucks so much for me right before I leave. I just want someone to talk to, just to pretend they care.