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[loneranger17]

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[Emotional_77]

I don't think of you as any of those, in fact I think you are quite the opposite and if your family actually does tell you those things that is just horrible and no one deserves to go through that. I am glad you are on this site and meeting people who do care about you and dont think awful things of you. You have come to great site.

[siegmonde]

Family is always be your family, in times of need and troubles.
Speak up and face them with chin up. Be brave, and have self confidence.

[TeardropJane]

This is easier said than done, but
Try to find good aspects of yourself,
Not of the bad,
And focus on those.
In the hardest times use these good things about yourself
To get through,
To build courage in yourself.

I've felt something like that too, and my advice above is what I used to get out and better.