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How can one stop comparing themselves to others?????

I have one this since childhood...sa 21 "professionals" in mental health....bought each of them a new Mercedes during my time with them was all I accomplished.

I constantly compare me to other guys....as I am inadequate! Other guys have it all...muscles, hair, etc...I could never attain this stuff thru hard work, dedication, money, and even prayer!

Yet..they get it Naturally!!!!

So life is fair???? Bull----!!!!!

I guess I am destined to be "that guy" who makes [u]others [/u]feel good about who they are...while I am destined to be inferior, worthless, and inadequate.

I wish all the time that my mother would have had an abortion whenever she was carrying me!!!!

Yeah...two failed suicide attempts.....what keeps me going is each day I am closer to death, one way or another, and even then, I am to be cremated...it was a big enough embarassment to have to be seen like this while living!!!!!!!

Peace out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so so sorry
I don't know what to say....
But other than keep fighting!! Remember what you always tell me okay? We are here and that all that matters and together we are going to fight this and become better

Keep strong.
Keep fighting with me!
And I'll hold your hand though the tough times.
There is light at the end of the tunnel promise you.

(((Hugs)))