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I never thought i would loose myself in the process of depression, i had thought i had beat it but it seems it beat me. the sad thing is i dont know who im anymore ive lost myself ive lost my feelings. Ive always been told i look cold and emotionless no smile no expression. But its frustrating not to feel at all its like im numb and cant help but feel helpless but than its just in my mind , words that cant be process to feelings. I hate it even death seems pointless...sometimes i feel so tired ...my life hasnt been harsh so i dont complain. im thankful but you have no idea how badly i want to scream that im here that i want to feel again... i lost myself i dont know when but along the road i was swallowed by depression,

Have no words, sorry...
But I'm here, I read. And I care.

Keep posting.
Always here.

((((Hugs))))

Maybe "losing" your self, isn't as bad as you think. What is the self, but the ego, or the story/symbols that you attach yourself to. In a physical sense, you can never be anything but yourself, even if you can't explain yourself linguistically.
And, if you ever feel like screaming, go for it. Scream at the top of your lungs when you're alone some time.

I'm with The...Wind here (partly because I like the sound of being with The Wind). I feel part of moving ahead with life is leaving behind parts of ourselves that aren't working. We may never get rid of them completely; but if we can lose them for a while, then we may allow more practical things to take their place.