I am seriously depressed

[january20]

I never thought that I could get to such a low point in my life. I having many sleepless nights; cried that I am crying but with no tears to a point where it's giving me a headache

My experience a about a year ago made me aware that it's a 'dog eat dog' world, and the world has no place for the small person. I lost my job and it is partly because of victimization. I recognize that people are going to be people but I thougt I would have been able to have someone listen to me just to hear what I had to say, no one gave me the time of day. I had a good track record at work, no problem for seven years until a new person came in and that was it. I tried everything, I even sent letters to my congress person. I have been trying to get a job since last August without success. My unmployment would run out at some point, what I am receiving now for one month is less that what I received in salary in two weeks. I have mortgage, car note and other expense. My credit is affected. I used every penny that I had saved, 401K - everything. I am the end of my rope.

I think why I am hurting this bad is because if it wasnt for a human being like myself, I would not have been in this situation at this time when the job market is terrible. I know that I will get a job but I hope that it happens before my unemployment runs out.

People say we must think positive at all times, I do that all them time but I am ovrwhelmed now. I am currently in school and I don't know where I get the strength from, but I immerse myself into my work.

I am fearful and even scared to think ahead; everything looks so gloomy

[Obayan]

Pain is pain. It doesn't matter what the cause of it is. You feel it. It's real. It matters. You matter. I'm very sorry that you are having such a hard time of things right now. I know you see yourself as being a victom, but you don't have to stay one. Reach out and get some help. Learn how to overcome this and get your life back again. Coming here was a great start! Lots of very careing and helpfull people.