Hi there {{{{georgiapeach}}}}
it makes me sad to hear about your distress and anguish.
You don`t really say much about what has exactly happenend and thats ok.. as you said "best to keep it behind closed" and I respect that.
What makes me feel hopeful for you is that you have stayed in touch with us here.. you have shared your thoughts... and that should comfort you also

just a little.
It`s such a personal situation you are going through... just keep in touch..
Just a short message .. to tell ya I/we care.... and I don`t bite either
My last thought - don`t you dare feel alone and lost... sometimes maybe... but not now!
Hope ya understanding what I`m babbling about... sees ya soon