In Life's Slump

[Tom57]

Life is just muddling along and I guess it's OK, but I feel like I'm depressed and scared.

Lately I've been in a social slump. With my social life I only had three people going for me but I just talked to them on the phone only; never getting together with them One is a local friend who is 90 years old and not well, another is an old college friend, and my sister. My college friend and sister live 3000 miles from me. That's all I had and, at times, I felt lonely and friendless when I had them. But recently I let them all go.

I got tired of them criticizing, antagonizing, and playing games with me. And now I have no one. No friends, no family. I'm introverted and I do alright with being alone. But I don't like being totally alone. I've met a couple of people whom I could possibly become friends with lately, but when I got to know them better, then I didn't like them. I guess they felt the same way about me.

Recently I lost a front tooth. It had a crown on it and it just came out when I was eating. It happened without warning. I feel like I have to deal with this all by myself. And the procedure (I made an appointment with an oral surgeon and will have work done on it soon) will be costly. I'm dreading the appointment, but it has to be done.

So that's what's going on with me lately. My 90 year old friend tries to get me back. We've been through it in the past so many times. When we've gotten back together, after a while, he finds a way to blow it for me.