Need help.

[thevix]

hi, this is my first time here, sorry for my bad english, but ive been strugling with alot of things, maybe u dont find it that bad and i know they arent that bad, but i just needed to let it out of my mind, so, i dont know if i have social anxienty but everytime i talk to a new person my face goes bright red, i dont know why it happens, because i dont have social anxienty, atleast thats what im thinking, if u guys know how i can make this stop please reply, ive been having this for almost my whole life now, at first i where only getting a bright red face when i was talking to my crush but now i almost get it to everyone i speak, its driving me crazy, and now for the second thing, these last past years i feel pretty lost in life, im only 16 years old but still i think i need to have everything figured out. im trying to make money for the past 3 years but nothing has working, i havent made a single penny, i also am trying to find a girlfriend so maybe i can marry later but that isnt working too because of my bright red face, im emberassing myself, but that isnt it, i dont know why i feel lost in life, its bugging me lately, ever since i tried making money, i felt lost, and i know im only 16 and i have my whole life ahead, but i dont think that, i think that i dont have that much time left, im not killing myself or anything but its just wandering in the back of my head, because of that im feeling alone, but im not even alone because i have a great family and alot of friends, but still. i feel this way. i dont wanna talk to my family about thiss because i dont know how to explain this, thats why this is me just rambeling about stuff. and thats also why im typing this on here. if u got any help about the stuff i just said, please, reply.