Feeling lost and alone trying something new

[Lexi2Jess]

Hi for anyone who reads this my name is Lexi and I am new here this is a first time for me but I really need an outlet of some sort and feel as if I have no one else to talk to.. I have never felt so lost in my life and cant even begin to describe how lonely I feel. I have 2 beautiful kids that have literally been the only things to be honest keeping me alive.. I am here because I don't want to give up on them but sometimes I feel that they would be better without me. I've dealt with depression and anxiety since I was 15 and try to hide it as much as I can but unfortunately it has been becoming to much to bear with that being said I have tried talking with therapists and been given medications but have given up on that route.. hoping to find some people with similar things going on with their lives so I don't feel so alone..

[Tom57]

Hello Lexi,

Welcome aboard to this site.

I'm sorry with what you're going through. I found this site because of depression for myself. I've gone the route of therapists and medications. Both didn't work well for me.

I keep myself busy as much as I can. I exercise every day (not real intensive) and it helps. It doesn't take away my depression completely but I feel better after a workout and a bike ride for an hour. After a while, that good feeling wears off.

I won't be giving you any suggestions or advice because I seeking for myself; and I've been at it for many decades. I don't know if it's something that's just built in me or is it because of living life.

I wish the best for you. I hope this site will be helpful and you'll feel at home here.

[Claire_K]

Hello Lexi,
Ι m new here, i came for the same reason.

Nobody can know what it's like to have depression. It doesn’t just mean “I’m sad” — it’s something so deep, like having a hot mark inside you that only you feel when you’re around other people.
A lack of meaning, a lack of interest in anything. It’s one of the worst illnesses; it eats your life away little by little. I think everyone of us here feels the same.