Loosing best friend through suicide

[CrazyLady17]

Yes me and my bestfriend was more like sisters, we spent Christmas together ever since we was like 7 years old. And I'm now 17, so that's 10 years worth and gone to the drain

What? Think about tomorrow? No thanks. I'm stuck in hospital all Christmas.

[CrazyLady17]

First Christmas without my lovely best friend Rosie...
Today is going to be such a emotional and hard day for me, I can see it already.
Wishing she was still alive- wishing she was here with me... She would of spent today with me now I'm left all on my own.

I can't get through today with Rosie, it's impossible.

I miss her like crazy. It's unreal.

I want her back

[CrazyLady17]

Yesterday was very hard and tough and very emotional, knowing I wasn't going to spend Christmas with my best friend as she committed suicide nearly 3 months ago now. Wow time flys now'a days
I miss her more and more every single day. Sometimes I wish I was dead too, so I could be with her and be able to spend time with her. I feel so lost and empty without her, I feel more depressed kampung she's dead.

I'm nothing now she's gone.

[CrazyLady17]

First new year without my best friend...,
Going to be hard and going to so emotional and sad...
I wish she was here with me- can't do live without her!!

Struggling a lot without her.

[CrazyLady17]

So it's a new year and hopefully a new start and hopefully to start to come to terms with my best friends suicide death....

I know she is up there in heaven watching down on me and making sure I am doing okay and she is my guiding angel and I hope she is so proud of me up there...
I know god is looking after her and she is safe and she is in a better and happier place now.

I am now starting to accept the fact she has gone and never coming back...

Heartbreaking though.

[CrazyLady17]

Today is the day my best friend sadly took her own life and I was the one I find her dead....

This is such a hard, emotional an heartbreaking day for me.

Everyday I miss her even more...

I wish she was here with me now.

14/05/96- 13/10/2013.