My story

[welshcowboy]

Hello all,
I've suffered with depression for 4 years or so, or at least it was noticed as depression.

In basic I think I have depression due to loss, over the past few years ive been up the top and crashed to the bottom, I level off and then something will happen and bang... Life becomes unbearable.

In the past 12 months I've lost both my dad and my dear grandmother who I was really close to, and of late found out my partner of 8 years had been cheating the whole duration of our relationship.
As a newly single person without my usual support network I'm finding my depression becoming worse.
My trouble is that I deny my illness to anybody and find myself always having to act like everything is fine and so am I, so alone time is think and cope with time.

I'm here to be open and honest and to speak with people who have been through what I am, or to meet and talk to people who understand.

I look forward to getting to know you guys on the forum.

C

[hollyann]

Hi Welshcowboy. Its nice to meet you. I'm sorry things are so hard for you, have you tried grief counseling to help you cope with your lost? Or a bereavment group?

Loss can be difficult but it can get eaiser with time. I honestly dont have the words, as I'velost many loved ones and friends in my life, and I know words and condolences no matter how well meaning fall short. And the hole is still there. It does get easier though.

I'm sorry also about your partner cheatng. Something else I've been through though the relationship didn't last near as long as yours.

You dont have to worry about denying your illness here. And I'm glad you found this place, feel free to try to chat room too if you havent.

holly

[Tilly]

"My trouble is that I deny my illness to anybody and find myself always having to act like everything is fine". Sounds like me. I hide it very well.

Sometimes the pain is unbearable. You are not alone!