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I feel this way almost every single day. :shock: Only ... now it's, that I want to die, and that I am also often suicidal too. :? It changed a bit. I'm sorry you feel like that, Xarvon. It's a pretty helpless state. When I feel like that, it lasts for a long time, and then it wans, but when it comes...

Welcome BeagleMom.

It's not about being "right or wrong". As a matter of fact, I'm probably always wrong. Based on the way everyone has viewed me my whole life, including here, I'm never right. Feelings are more important than being "right or wrong". Sadly, that's not a priority for most people. My...

--had.

Our dog(s) have passed. First, it was two of them. This was about a year ago. Recently, we had a male dog put down this February.

Dogs are great, but the next possible pet (for me, in the distant future) is a bird. Maybe a cockatoo.

I can tell you that I smell emotions. I'm weird.

Animals -- both wild and domesticated -- are so lovely. They function by pure instinct. No mental games to get in the way. The natural order that they live by is untouchable. My parents had to put three of our dogs down. The first two, our girls, Sadie and Babe were put down about a year ago. Before...

Enigma, Enya, Delerium, Conjure One. (Mostly.)

People just love to think I think things that I don't think. No. The world ... isn't really good or bad. It's painful. What's worse, it's unsuitable for human beings. We live here, and a lot of us can't take the pain, so we die here. Still, I can't wrap my mind around the folks who have lived for so...

I used to write out my thoughts in high school. Not sure why I stopped. I don't really go back and learn from my old entries as much as it relieves me of stress at that moment. Sortof like release of some kind to help me deal with the present. It does help me, my alternative methods for release are...

There's a point, only if you want there to be a point.

As far as I'm concerned, there is no point because I don't want there to be a point. Did away with mine. Did away with a lot of things, and I will do away with everything until there is nothing left.

And I've been through way too much for someone who's only 25. Taught me a lot about this world. Guess it isn't always a matter of age. Nothing can take your heart away from you. NOTHING. Your heart is untouchable. No. You are absolutely wrong about that. I had my heart stolen from me. I miss her and...

Welcome Gaby77. Feel free to post your feelings on the forums.

How can you love yourself if you grew up being hated instead of love? How can you understand the giving and receiving of love if your earliest memories were the opposite? How is there hope if there is no love because, at least, to me, love is the one thing that I know I need? Above all else? Nothing...

Welcome to the forums Cerioth. I seem to have a habit of liking usernames lately.

Enjoy.

Happiness is complicated territory with me. Because of my childhood sexual abuse, which was done in the form of a "game", my subconscious mind associates happiness with abuse. This is usually in the form of laughter, humor, and play. Those three things are usually associated with happiness...