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Thank you SecondhandAngel It's in the thirties ( degrees ) tonight and I just sat there shivering waiting for the stars to come out but I can't see any of them only dark clouds. When I sleep at night there has to be a night light in the room. I've never felt this alone and empty before. I wonder wha...

I like this it's a really good idea. 1. Watching fireflies 2. My favorite blanket right after the laundry is done and it's still all warm from the dryer and smelling sweet 3. Chocolate chip cookies right out of the oven when they are still gooey 4. Seeing the Ferris Wheel at my town carnival lit up ...

Thank you Rachel. I like your name it's really pretty and it's very nice to meet you. The night before last was another one of those rare nights in Autumn. I sat in the back of my house and watched all of the lightning light up the dark night. It danced and showed it's art working magic right throug...

Tonight I was so angry I felt on the verge of losing it. When my niece came to my house to pick up the baby after work she had her son with her. He is always talking about how he hates cats. Tonight while they were here he kicked one of my cats. He kicked it for absolutely no reason at all. The only...

I've been thinking a lot in the last few days about what you've said secondhandangel and your right. Funny how I constantly always sat there wondering why he had to hate me so much and secretly blaming myself...when in reality he did nothing to make a serious effort help. I mean what kind of guy won...

I remember at one time me and Bobby used to finish each others sentences. It's hard to believe it was most likely all fake. When something nice happened in my life he was always the first person I wanted to run to and tell. Like when I seen a beautiful shaped cloud in the sky or a wildflower blowing...

Hi there. I found a quote that made me think of you. Your trauma is valid. Even if other people have experienced " worse " Even if someone else who went through the same experience doesn't feel debilitated by it Even if it " could have been avoided" Even if it happened a long tim...

Windy, cloudy nights I do believe are one of my favorite things in the world. Sitting out underneath that big wide country sky and seeing the clouds pass over the stars like dark ships on a stormy sea... you see them for a second and then just as soon as they appear they are gone. The hardest thing ...

I really love this place because I feel safe here....Throughout the whole world around me this is the only place I have to go and I know I can speak here anonymously... Tonight I took my usual cup of hot chocolate and sat in the dark all by myself in my positive seat and watched the stars for the lo...

Thank you both. I've been trying really hard to answer these last posts but it's hard. I've been doing what I always do watching the sunsets and the stars even a few sunrises but it's so hard to find the words I need to describe them. It still feels like there's something broken inside of me. It's l...

Did you know that the man in the moon is an artist ? He wakes up every evening with a paint brush and works with his magic fingers long into the deep of night.... I see them a lot when I'm sitting outside under the stars. I could watch them forever. Moon shadows I call them. Beautiful dancing patter...

Sometimes I wonder how much a person can really take. When my niece came to my house yesterday to pick up the baby she stood there laughing because my house was such a mess. There were baby toys and items strewn from one end of my living room to the other from babysitting all day. And she stands the...

I'm still here for now. Living my days watching the sunsets turn all dusty gray, ivory and pink and blue because summer is slowly dying giving birth to autumn. The moon this time of year looks cool and shiny while I sit in a lawn chair in my front yard. I can see what I think they call the craters o...

I've thought a lot about lately if I should actually forcefully stand up to my niece or not. Deep down in my heart I know that I never could do it. Why ? Because if I was going to do it I would have a long time ago. Face it I'm just a marshmallow inside. But that's okay I can live with being a marsh...

Depression takes away a lot from you and yes it definitely does control a lot of your actions and thoughts but the one thing that helped me survive was the beating of my own heart. That is one thing depression couldn't take away from me. And although some things in my life felt very foggy and cloude...