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by heavyheart38
Tue Aug 03, 2021 4:12 am
Forum: Pets
Topic: what pets do you have?
Replies: 27
Views: 32526

Re: what pets do you have?

Sadly we had our cat Jack but to sleep, one of the hardest things I've had to do. It tore me badly. Luckily Phoebe has filled the hole left by his departure.
by heavyheart38
Tue Aug 03, 2021 4:07 am
Forum: Expressions
Topic: I really hate my body
Replies: 1
Views: 915

Re: I really hate my body

You are not the issue. He is the one with the issue. You have grown beautiful children within your body, and given birth to them. My wife was a size 18 when I met her at (her age) 18. She is now 42, a size 20. She has carried our 2 daughters (now 19 and 14)and she carries her stretch marks and extra...
by heavyheart38
Sun Jul 04, 2021 3:11 am
Forum: Living with Depression and other Related Health Concerns
Topic: Just venting. Need this out of my system
Replies: 0
Views: 1328

Just venting. Need this out of my system

I'm over everything. Sick of pain from failed wrist surgery. Sick of my job that is the direct source of my wrists failing. Sick of dental pain daily waiting to see whether insurance will pay. Sick of busting ass 10 hrs a day then having to wait till late to pick up daughter from work. Sick of faili...
by heavyheart38
Sun Jul 04, 2021 3:04 am
Forum: Living with Depression and other Related Health Concerns
Topic: Close to ending it.
Replies: 3
Views: 2817

Re: Close to ending it.

I wish there was a like button on above posters comment. Original posters post ran very true to me. All that keeps me from taking my life is my wife, my kids and my dog.
by heavyheart38
Thu Mar 19, 2020 2:32 am
Forum: Pets
Topic: what pets do you have?
Replies: 27
Views: 32526

Re: what pets do you have?

I have a cat Jack he's about 9 years old.
Also have a dog, King Charles Spaniel/Maltese Terrier Cross named Phoebe. She is 6.months old and keeps us entertained
by heavyheart38
Thu Mar 19, 2020 2:29 am
Forum: New Member Introductions
Topic: Withdrawing from life, and the wife is pissed about it
Replies: 6
Views: 4841

Re: Withdrawing from life, and the wife is pissed about it

Hi mine kinda crept up on me, I've always been pretty quiet. However the last few years, having 2 kids my social circle went from small to 0. A redundancy went from having a laugh with workmates on shift to a new job where I work alone overthinking for 8hrs a day. I once was optimistic and motivate...
by heavyheart38
Thu Mar 19, 2020 2:26 am
Forum: Expressions
Topic: Why do I want to disappear?
Replies: 2
Views: 2872

Re: Why do I want to disappear?

It troubles me to say this but these are my exact feelings, only thing is I'm 44, married and a Dad to 2 girls. Doesn't help with all this Covid19 hype and work slowing to a meaningless grind 10 hrs a day.
by heavyheart38
Wed Mar 04, 2020 3:06 pm
Forum: Living with Depression and other Related Health Concerns
Topic: Another vent... Sorry
Replies: 1
Views: 2399

Another vent... Sorry

Over past week I've had the dark thoughts, unable to sleep any decent amount, crying incessively for no reason. I find myself wondering about if leaving my wife, kids and pets is a good idea. Oldest is 18, offers nothing positive. Youngest is 13 and beginning to want her space so Dad's no longer a g...
by heavyheart38
Tue Dec 31, 2019 12:47 am
Forum: Living with Depression and other Related Health Concerns
Topic: Struggling again
Replies: 1
Views: 3237

Struggling again

This time of year is always horrible for me. Everyone's all happy and upbeat, me, I just wanna disappear for a while. Wife doesn't understand, oldest daughter makes me feel a failure. I have a little positive, I bought a puppy and I love her to bits. Only thing in my life that seems to be happy when...
by heavyheart38
Fri Aug 02, 2019 4:14 am
Forum: Your Story
Topic: I can not see any light at the end of the tunnel
Replies: 4
Views: 3241

Re: I can not see any light at the end of the tunnel

I feel the same 43, hate my job, have extreme anxiety trying to talk to my wife about the issues regarding the lack of intimacy we now have, (months of nothing and my "equipment" no longer works), I'd be keen to hear how others have seen the light
by heavyheart38
Fri Jan 18, 2019 1:40 am
Forum: Living with Depression and other Related Health Concerns
Topic: Want to feel alive again~
Replies: 5
Views: 5537

Re: Want to feel alive again~

The title for this thread is exactly what I desperately need. Im beginning to get the symptoms of becoming immune to my meds, Nortriptyline, I've already become immune to citilopram and one other med I can't remember. I take a healthy dose of Lithium, pryodoxine and magnesium (for sleep and excrucia...
by heavyheart38
Fri Jan 18, 2019 1:30 am
Forum: Living with Depression and other Related Health Concerns
Topic: Just so overwhelmed
Replies: 2
Views: 2487

Re: Just so overwhelmed

Wow. That puts things in perspective. My worries pale in comparison to what you are going through, and what you have written here has genuinely bought tears to my eyes. YOU are in my thoughts and YOU are doing as good as you can with the hand you have been dealt. I salute YOU ma'am for being able to...
by heavyheart38
Sun Dec 30, 2018 5:51 pm
Forum: Living with Depression and other Related Health Concerns
Topic: Just so overwhelmed
Replies: 2
Views: 2487

Just so overwhelmed

Last day of the year. Very average year, highlight was going overseas for the first time. Opened my eyes to what's out there. Anyway it's basically done. Have massive feelings of being overwhelmed by the lack of what I've accomplished in my life ( I'm 42), I feel trapped in my job, feel unappreciate...
by heavyheart38
Sun Dec 30, 2018 5:33 pm
Forum: Living with Depression and other Related Health Concerns
Topic: Medications
Replies: 6
Views: 5719

Re: Medications

Does anyone else become immune to their meds? I'm on my third type and I can feel the nortriptyline is starting to lose it's effectiveness. I had the dosage increased early 2018 and I perked up, but over last couple of months I've just felt "flat". Problem with this is last time I was in a...
by heavyheart38
Sat May 12, 2018 4:44 pm
Forum: Living with Depression and other Related Health Concerns
Topic: Severe Depression-reaching out
Replies: 6
Views: 5360

Re: Severe Depression-reaching out

I feel your pain. I really do. I have suffered from depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember. I have tried so many medications, therapies, etc... but never feel like I am living a normal, happy life. From the outside looking in, I have a wonderful life, but my brain makes my life look b...

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