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by BlueWhovian
Fri Jul 25, 2014 12:09 pm
Forum: Expressions
Topic: Ramblings
Replies: 12
Views: 3631

Numb is all I have felt for a while now. We lived in a motel and then got the chance to get our own place. As soon as we move in and start paying towards it, he loses his job and is on unemployment. I know it's not his fault but it scares me. I'm afraid we're going to lose everything. Our house look...
by BlueWhovian
Sat May 31, 2014 6:37 am
Forum: Your Story
Topic: My Story
Replies: 19
Views: 4179

Well, once again I'm back. I’m living and breathing, that’s about the only thing I have going for me it seems. For a while I have felt like things are missing, out of place, continually pulled from my grasp. I work to improve things just for them to be pulled away, or something fall through. I’ve la...
by BlueWhovian
Wed Jan 22, 2014 6:02 pm
Forum: Your Story
Topic: My Story
Replies: 19
Views: 4179

Got a letter taped to our door today that rent is now going to go up. $185 a week now, that's 740 a month if it's 4 weeks, 1,110 a month on 5 week months. They're gonna start coming to our rooms to see if we're turning the heat on low, tv and computer off when we're asleep or not home. Hit me hard, ...
by BlueWhovian
Mon Jan 20, 2014 9:20 pm
Forum: Your Story
Topic: My Story
Replies: 19
Views: 4179

I guess that was a bit of Karma. :) So today we ended up getting to talk to the neighbor in 14 (we're in 15), turns out she and her boyfriend used to live with our friend as well and found out we all got the same treatment from the friend and her family. She told me not to let everything they have s...
by BlueWhovian
Sun Jan 19, 2014 10:53 pm
Forum: Your Story
Topic: My Story
Replies: 19
Views: 4179

Thanks 4everme :) Things have been a little stressful as far as money and noise. Both neighbors work nights and so I'm paranoid about making too much noise which my husband thinks is funny -_- and so Friday he was making all kinds of noise getting ready for work and the neighbors could hear and I ke...
by BlueWhovian
Fri Jan 17, 2014 12:45 am
Forum: Your Story
Topic: My Story
Replies: 19
Views: 4179

Hiya Frame, I'm glad to be back. Also want to be in the safest place possible but I feel somewhat guilty I think due to the way I was abused as a kid. I feel guilty about things that aren't even my fault. At the same time I'm having to worry my husband won't follow through with changing the number a...
by BlueWhovian
Thu Jan 16, 2014 8:33 pm
Forum: Your Story
Topic: My Story
Replies: 19
Views: 4179

Updates So, since I was last able to post, I haven't been able to really get on because we couldn't buy more data/time for the Wifi hotspot. We were having to buy truck parts, deal with the things going on at the house and other stuff. We were still unable to really give her the $400 a month but she...
by BlueWhovian
Thu Oct 31, 2013 12:34 pm
Forum: Expressions
Topic: Ramblings
Replies: 12
Views: 3631

I do like to draw but sometimes I don't feel like I'm that great at drawing because my husband is far better at it, when I draw I feel like it looks like a child drew it. I haven't really wanted to draw lately because he does all the time and the woman. still treats him like $#^% and I'm afraid she'...
by BlueWhovian
Thu Oct 31, 2013 3:22 am
Forum: Expressions
Topic: Ramblings
Replies: 12
Views: 3631

Hi BlueWhovian, I know what you mean by feeling empty and just numb all over. It's sort of what I'd consider a catatonic state to feel like- though not as severe as that. Do you have any talents you could employ to help pass the time? Keep in mind, that we sometimes possess talents we're not even a...
by BlueWhovian
Thu Oct 31, 2013 2:10 am
Forum: Expressions
Topic: Ramblings
Replies: 12
Views: 3631

I sometimes just feel empty. Like I'm here seeing, feeling, and living through everything but it's like I'm not feeling it. I'm just in a body but I have no feelings. I don't remember the last time I smiled because I was happy or laughed and felt good. Mostly just depressed and cry or sit numbly and...
by BlueWhovian
Thu Oct 31, 2013 1:39 am
Forum: Your Story
Topic: My Story
Replies: 19
Views: 4179

We met her through a friend he made at a local gas station. He would stop in and talk to him every weekend on the way home from work and he was helping us out. Well his wife was rude and didn't want him around and claimed he was using them. He said he knew a lady who lived alone and had the truck fo...
by BlueWhovian
Wed Oct 30, 2013 11:49 pm
Forum: Your Story
Topic: My Story
Replies: 19
Views: 4179

I sometimes wonder how I continue to go on with life. I have been through so much and it’s just hard. Things seemed to be going ok for a bit, but lately it's gotten to me. For several months I was stuck in a house alone, afraid of my landlord. Now I'm in a house with my husband afraid of the woman w...
by BlueWhovian
Mon Aug 19, 2013 10:41 pm
Forum: Expressions
Topic: Ramblings
Replies: 12
Views: 3631

Ramblings

Maybe I'm just a Robot? Sometimes I feel like all I am anymore is an emotionless robot. Numb and alert but not really feeling anything. Other times I feel human, but that's generally when I feel disgusted, angry or unhappy. I smile and laugh, but it's been a while since I remember what happy is and ...
by BlueWhovian
Mon Aug 12, 2013 9:54 pm
Forum: Family and Friends of People Living with Depression
Topic: Family doesn't "Get Me"
Replies: 4
Views: 3551

So recently it's been my husband who I feel isn't getting me and I'm not sure why. He knows how I feel about certain things, things I would like to do, things I don't like etc. We've been having to wait on someone to come fix this truck for a month now. For two weeks he stayed at someone's house whi...
by BlueWhovian
Tue Aug 06, 2013 4:16 am
Forum: New Member Introductions
Topic: Hiya
Replies: 5
Views: 1179

Sorry if I ramble but I guess I'll try to explain. I think the craziest stuff and things just stick in my head. I sit and my mind wanders to crazy scenarios like people cutting me with chainsaws or me cutting my own self. I see horrifying images from the internet and they stick with me for a while. ...

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