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I recently put this on youtube. havent got much feedback. anything from you guys would be great.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VryAI1gOWjY

no 4 isnt bad. but pretending to be happy and to have an attrative personality makes it pretty easy to get a military dorm whores in your bed. but i dont want that i want to have a woman that wants to be with me and i just cant do it. eventually my desires become to strong and i get needy. then they...

I know how you feel. if im not at work i will sit around in my barracks all day and stare at the computer or T.V. and thats it switching between eating small meals and zoning out to t.v. untill i feel like i can fall asleep.

here's my attempt at telling my story, I am a 19 year old Male, I grew up moving from place to place because my mother was to poor to keep us anywhere for more than 2 years. my father was an alcoholic that beat my mother when i was a baby so she ran away with me. I'm weird and unsecure and hate myse...