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Well, I thought things were working their way up for a while, but I'm not so sure now. I don't know what it is but I just feel drained of all the happiness I'd finally built up. It wasn't much, but just a little bit is a lot to me. My fiancé and I had maybe one good conversation where we were laughi...

Well today I just slept all dang day. Everyone around here did. Except for my sister. The nutcase was up at 7am wanting to make breakfast and get up and go. I don't even remember what time I got up really, but it was after 2 for sure. It was just one of those rare days where you just have absolutely...

Hello Nick546, Don't worry about making assumptions. It's like you said, you don't know me and I don't know you, so assumptions are really the only starting point in this kind of situation. Anyway (I ramble), I do realize that a lot of things that I say can be confusing or taken in a number of ways....

I have been cleaning ALL DAY. And my room is still a total wreck. I never realized how much crap I have. Or had anyway, I tossed a lot of stuff and set aside some stuff to give away. Have you seen IKEA furniture? It tends to be either small or gigantic. Well, I have two floor to ceiling wardrobes in...

I'm sorry you feel that way. My writing here is not for the sole purpose of entertaining others with accounts of things that happen in my life. I could care less if no one read it at all. I'm venting and writing for my own sake. If people read it, fine, if they don't, fine. However I did say that I ...

I do believe you've already said that in pretty much the exact words, thank you....

I'm not really sure how to describe today... Stable I guess? It wasn't bad but it wasn't my idea of a particularly good day either. I got to see my cousin for the first time since her wedding last month. We went to see how her new house is coming along. It looks great. The house is 30+ years old and...

Actually no, I did not know any of that. I just call it letting it all out and telling it like it is.

Thank you St8arrow, for a lot of what you said really. I know I should go back a break all my writing up a bit. I've been meaning to, but when I write this stuff I'm just writing as it flows and I don't really stop and take the time to separate things. The fact that I usually write late at night pro...

I'm still spiraling down... I got a call from my college today about trying to fix my grades... I don't even know if I passed or failed anything really... I know I for sure completely failed one class, and I'm pretty sure I failed the other three... if I didn't, then I just barely passed... My GPA d...

I came back from my vacation to Tennessee a few days ago. It was alright for the most part. I got to see the Tennessee Aquarium. I've always had a thing for aquariums. I think it opens up my sense of wonder and adoration for things I cannot fathom such as just how huge the oceans are and the fact th...

People who can see things the way you do inspire me. I have to say, my mindset is usually very similar, but I have too many episodes and times of crashing and burning and being unable to pull myself out of it for weeks or months at a time... It does make me happy to know that there are people who ca...

Today I've realized that many kinds of fear are what rule and control my life... Fear of failure, fear of rejection, fear of just fear itself... I don't want to be afraid... I don't want to be like this... it's not right and I know it's childish to say, but it's just not fair... I have so much to be...

I'm not good at recalling things from the past all at once. Terrible memory problems. But I was just thinking, my story is not just about past events up til now. It's about the past, sure, but it's also about today, tomorrow, and whatever comes after. So I wanna use this as a place to come and write...

balcony: Thanks, I know I definitely communicate better through writing than I do face to face or even over the phone. In person I tend to freeze up and I stutter and tend to speak in a very monotone voice without meaning to. It's strange though because I have no problem speaking to my class during ...