Over time even the hardest boulders crack

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Corius
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Joined: Mon Jul 08, 2019 9:27 pm
Location: Nebraska

Over time even the hardest boulders crack

Postby Corius » Mon Jul 08, 2019 10:48 pm

Well I found my way here like most I would assume. I have my problems PTSD and depression being the biggest. There are dates that I would like to avoid.

While I can fight my demons and I have gotten to a point where medication is not needed anymore. Some times I just need to talk to people that understand what it is like. For me what lays heaviest on my shoulders is my family needing me my wife of 14 years has depression, anxiety and bipolar with auditory hallucinations. Makes for a hand full :D

People in my friend circle looking in sees her as bat shit crazy and someone that is dragging my business into the ground. Spending money when she is manic or me spending time taking care of her when she is so low that getting out of bed is a chore.

While I have always been the rock for my family. The provider, protector, some to just listened it is hard to talk to them about my needs without them feeling bad on some level. Turning to friends coming or family doesn't help much because they don't understand that sometimes I just have to relieve pressure and get some things off my chest

I love her with all my heart and soul she has been there through my word moments and I will be there for her to support her in anyway I can. But there are time when the business has some problems and my priorities get scrambled where cracks do start to show.
You wake up every morning to fight the same demons that left you so tired the night before, and that, my love, is bravery.

jess-scott
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Joined: Thu Jul 11, 2019 5:25 pm

Re: Over time even the hardest boulders crack

Postby jess-scott » Thu Jul 11, 2019 7:21 pm

Hi Corius,
Sounds hard. And yet you seem grounded and aware of the complexity and nuances of your situation. The commitment and compassion you have for your wife shows through your writing and choice of words. I hope you find those resources that understand and can listen.


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