Feeling lost in life
Posted: Fri Dec 04, 2020 12:26 am
I don’t even know where to begin. I feel like I’m too young to be feeling how i do. Quarantine makes everything worse, I already isolate myself and now it gives me more of a reason. I feel like I’m never good enough and I think about ending things often. There are moments where I really get torn and go to the bathroom to cry without anyone knowing. I feel like I have no one here for me. I don’t talk to anyone about these things. I don’t feel comfortable telling my mom and my dad has nothing to do with my life. I tell my boyfriend sometimes but I don’t want to seem like I am manipulating anyone by telling them I am depressed and don’t want to be here anymore even though it is the truth. I don’t want them to think I want pity. It is a real feeling I have but happens to be shown more when someone does something that hurts me. I even started writing in my notes how I feel so worthless. I think people take it as a joke. I want to vanish and don’t want anyone to hear from me again. I’m tired of people acting like they care but causing pain to me when I already have anxiety. This is the only place I feel safe to talk about it