Here it goes!
Posted: Tue Feb 06, 2018 10:50 am
So I’m new to this online forum but I figured it can’t hurt to try it!
Unfortunately I’m not new to depression. I’ve been struggling on and off for years. Trying different meds some of which helped for awhile but then stopped. In the past year I lost my pt job as a store accountant, my health benefits (which only paid for my well visits, and some prescriptions???) had to stop working as a nanny (taking care of 4 kids under 12) and was diagnosed with IBS. I thought I was just overdoing it but soon came to realize it was depression setting in once again! That feeling of nothing’s ever good enough, can I get a break? I can’t afford healthcare and was denied Medicaid! Along with financial burden from my divorce 5 years ago, I have felt very defeated! I was married for 20 years and have 2 beautiful adult daughters. My job for those years was raising our daughters and taking pt jobs to help out. My ex-husband spent his time working and building a career. He was a good provider but absent when it came to his family! The divorce was heart breaking and messy! I basically walked away with nothing. Needless to say financially I have suffered ever since! I don’t like to play the victim and I’m not. I just have a lot of regrets! I’ve read some stories others have shared here and I feel like maybe there’s hope talking with other people who feel so unworthy and hopeless. Everyone has a story and I hope mine helps other to feel they are not alone! Depression is a debilitating disease!!!
Unfortunately I’m not new to depression. I’ve been struggling on and off for years. Trying different meds some of which helped for awhile but then stopped. In the past year I lost my pt job as a store accountant, my health benefits (which only paid for my well visits, and some prescriptions???) had to stop working as a nanny (taking care of 4 kids under 12) and was diagnosed with IBS. I thought I was just overdoing it but soon came to realize it was depression setting in once again! That feeling of nothing’s ever good enough, can I get a break? I can’t afford healthcare and was denied Medicaid! Along with financial burden from my divorce 5 years ago, I have felt very defeated! I was married for 20 years and have 2 beautiful adult daughters. My job for those years was raising our daughters and taking pt jobs to help out. My ex-husband spent his time working and building a career. He was a good provider but absent when it came to his family! The divorce was heart breaking and messy! I basically walked away with nothing. Needless to say financially I have suffered ever since! I don’t like to play the victim and I’m not. I just have a lot of regrets! I’ve read some stories others have shared here and I feel like maybe there’s hope talking with other people who feel so unworthy and hopeless. Everyone has a story and I hope mine helps other to feel they are not alone! Depression is a debilitating disease!!!