i dont have word to explain how i'm feeling from day to day.
I am anxious everyday.... feeling that i will make an utter fool of myself.
i cry about things that need not be cried about.
I feel like am always to blame. And that i should have seen it coming.
i sleep only 4 hours per night.
I previously had thoughts of suicide. that i would do that when i reach a certain age. I sometimes wish that something will happen to me. I sometimes wish it could have been me instead of them. Their life is worth living more than mine.
i am scared of what is happening.
I am scared of failing. Of disappointing ppl.
I am not in a relationship because of this.
i have lost my voice...
... my soul.
i dont want to give up and succumb to the loneliness that is trying to envelope me.
Nobody knows what i'm going thru. Nobody need not know.
On the surface i seem ok. But when i'm alone... then i let myself be free. I cry myself to sleep.
I am hoping tomorrow will be a better day. And that i will have to drive to go on with my life. It is still a daily struggle for me.
Will it ever be better?
trying to make sense of life.
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welcome to the forums, things always get better in time, how better you may ask, know one really knows that answer, but a bit better is better than what it previously once was. also attached to this site is a chatroom you may be interested into visiting!! im happy you found this site. keep posting!
welcome to the forums, things always get better in time, how better you may ask, know one really knows that answer, but a bit better is better than what it previously once was. also attached to this site is a chatroom you may be interested into visiting!! im happy you found this site. keep posting!
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