I'm sorry...

[Monty]

Jen,

I have just been able to get back to my computer after a bit of a hiatus. I also tend to "turtle" when things are going poorly for me. I have a litany of diagnosis and suffering with anxiety is one of them. For me having period of my life where the anxiety was so intense, that it was like I was physically unable to take part in the world.

I like to use the word turtle for when I retreat.

If a turtle pulls all his appendages in when faced with danger. He is pulling into his shell, a strong place, where he is safe. To the rest of the world is looks like he isn't there, but he still is, just in a place that is protecting himself.

I know that I do that. Last week was one of the times that I withdrew so far in, I wasn't sure if I would be able to come back. There was just a little bit of hope that I let into my life, and that is why I am able to post here today.

From the dates on posts, I can see that it has been a while since you have let us know how you are doing.

Drop a line if you can.

Hold on, tight.