Setting out on the journey again
Posted: Fri Jan 18, 2019 10:03 am
Hello everyone,
This is my first post since I am new here.
To start with, I wanted to express my gratitude for all the concern, positive feedback and support shared in this Forum.
Well, in the past years of my life (less than 2 years), I started suffering from mental health problems (anxiety and depression, I wasn't taking any medication) and couldn't get over that unhealthy state till the past few months (though I still can't say that I am 100 per cent normal again). In my case, the mental state I was suffering from was actually not the root of the problem, it was a consequence of several factors (mostly external) that contributed in making me feel really down and eventually giving up on everything, I was feeling totally worthless, burning inside from sadness and I didn't stop from blaming myself. It was until I acknowledged the fact that the first real roots of the problem were not caused by me so how come I blame myself with no stop in addition to realizing that I was no longer being myself, I searched and tried to see the real person within me but couldn't find her anymore. I realized that my biggest mistake was letting those external factors negatively impact me and I don't believe I should let anything impacts or decides what happens within me, this is the worst form of slavery, I should be the one who controls what happens within me.
So basically, I started feeling much relaxed and better recently, I am hoping to return to my old self as soon as possible and even elevate it more and more. From now on, I decided to live each single day for itself (without thinking about negative past situations nor being anxious for the future, who knows if I will wake up the day after anyway) so I should better just focus on fulfilling my responsibilities of the current day.
My only fear is giving up again, I really don't want to be down again.
I will be extremely thankful for anyone one keeping me in his or her prayers.
I am sending mercy, love and peace to anyone facing a hard time in their life. Believe that there is always hope, it's never late!
This is my first post since I am new here.
To start with, I wanted to express my gratitude for all the concern, positive feedback and support shared in this Forum.
Well, in the past years of my life (less than 2 years), I started suffering from mental health problems (anxiety and depression, I wasn't taking any medication) and couldn't get over that unhealthy state till the past few months (though I still can't say that I am 100 per cent normal again). In my case, the mental state I was suffering from was actually not the root of the problem, it was a consequence of several factors (mostly external) that contributed in making me feel really down and eventually giving up on everything, I was feeling totally worthless, burning inside from sadness and I didn't stop from blaming myself. It was until I acknowledged the fact that the first real roots of the problem were not caused by me so how come I blame myself with no stop in addition to realizing that I was no longer being myself, I searched and tried to see the real person within me but couldn't find her anymore. I realized that my biggest mistake was letting those external factors negatively impact me and I don't believe I should let anything impacts or decides what happens within me, this is the worst form of slavery, I should be the one who controls what happens within me.
So basically, I started feeling much relaxed and better recently, I am hoping to return to my old self as soon as possible and even elevate it more and more. From now on, I decided to live each single day for itself (without thinking about negative past situations nor being anxious for the future, who knows if I will wake up the day after anyway) so I should better just focus on fulfilling my responsibilities of the current day.
My only fear is giving up again, I really don't want to be down again.
I will be extremely thankful for anyone one keeping me in his or her prayers.
I am sending mercy, love and peace to anyone facing a hard time in their life. Believe that there is always hope, it's never late!