My Dad
Posted: Sat Dec 08, 2018 5:40 pm
Before you read the rest, I want you to know that I no longer see or speak to my dad, I'm fine. I just am hoping for a second opinion.
For the longest time, my dad and I never got along. He would always favor my older brother by almost never yelling at him or punishing him. He would always get really angry at me as well. I remember a time when I was 5, not too long after my parents split, and it was dinner time. I ate everything on the plate except for a slice of tomato. He knew I didnt like it, but continued to yell at me until I cried. Looking back, it seemed like he just wanted an excuse to yell at me, because he got so angry over something so stupid. He also used to do this thing where he'd grab my face, get his face close to mine just to yell at me and intimidate me. I can't really remember too many incidenter, I don't know if it's because I was young or I just blocked it out. But I do know that my dad did like things a certain way and if you didnt do it exactly how he wanted it, he would explode. I remember in preschool, before my parents split, I was able to make friends just fine. However, after they split, I had a hard time making friends in elementary school and even to this day. I'm just curious if there is some correlation there. In the 8th grade I was diagnosed with depression. I'm doing better now and am on medication. Although when I told my therapist about some of this stuff, she said that he might've been verbally or emotionally abusive. To be honest, I just want some sort of closure. I want to know what really happened and why I have depression. Did my dad have anything to do with it? Would he be considered abusive? I haven't talked to my dad after an incident about 5 months ago. Although, I again would like to make it clear that my dad wasnt physically abusive. The worst he did was again, grabbing my face. I also dont see my dad anymore so you dont have to worry about anything like that. Thanks.
For the longest time, my dad and I never got along. He would always favor my older brother by almost never yelling at him or punishing him. He would always get really angry at me as well. I remember a time when I was 5, not too long after my parents split, and it was dinner time. I ate everything on the plate except for a slice of tomato. He knew I didnt like it, but continued to yell at me until I cried. Looking back, it seemed like he just wanted an excuse to yell at me, because he got so angry over something so stupid. He also used to do this thing where he'd grab my face, get his face close to mine just to yell at me and intimidate me. I can't really remember too many incidenter, I don't know if it's because I was young or I just blocked it out. But I do know that my dad did like things a certain way and if you didnt do it exactly how he wanted it, he would explode. I remember in preschool, before my parents split, I was able to make friends just fine. However, after they split, I had a hard time making friends in elementary school and even to this day. I'm just curious if there is some correlation there. In the 8th grade I was diagnosed with depression. I'm doing better now and am on medication. Although when I told my therapist about some of this stuff, she said that he might've been verbally or emotionally abusive. To be honest, I just want some sort of closure. I want to know what really happened and why I have depression. Did my dad have anything to do with it? Would he be considered abusive? I haven't talked to my dad after an incident about 5 months ago. Although, I again would like to make it clear that my dad wasnt physically abusive. The worst he did was again, grabbing my face. I also dont see my dad anymore so you dont have to worry about anything like that. Thanks.