hey
Posted: Thu Sep 06, 2018 10:29 pm
I've been dealing with depression for a while, trying to hide it but I think some people can see it.
I am very socially awkward, get stressed easily, and get anxiety attacks over the smallest things. I tried to be a grown up, and did the grown up thing buying my first house. Thinking that would help. Its just added more stress and more anxiety.
I am 30 years old and have not had a true relationship with any girls. I don't know what to say to them. I tried online dating for years, no success. When I finally think I found someone, she wants to talk on the phone with me, she tries to sell me something.
I am in a dead end job, I make decent money but I am working 70-80 hours a week. Its a sales job so I have to put on a happy face and deal with jerks and people that they think they know everything, and have to deal with customer satisfaction scores which the company isn't making easy on us and I lose money from that.
I have had suicidal thoughts, a lot of them actually. Every time I do, I keep saying its not the right time (weddings and other "happy" events are happening in my family).
I know I don't have it as bad as some. But I don't know where to go. I'm scared to tell my family, they worry over everything. I'm scared to go to my friends about this. I'm just tired of it.
I am very socially awkward, get stressed easily, and get anxiety attacks over the smallest things. I tried to be a grown up, and did the grown up thing buying my first house. Thinking that would help. Its just added more stress and more anxiety.
I am 30 years old and have not had a true relationship with any girls. I don't know what to say to them. I tried online dating for years, no success. When I finally think I found someone, she wants to talk on the phone with me, she tries to sell me something.
I am in a dead end job, I make decent money but I am working 70-80 hours a week. Its a sales job so I have to put on a happy face and deal with jerks and people that they think they know everything, and have to deal with customer satisfaction scores which the company isn't making easy on us and I lose money from that.
I have had suicidal thoughts, a lot of them actually. Every time I do, I keep saying its not the right time (weddings and other "happy" events are happening in my family).
I know I don't have it as bad as some. But I don't know where to go. I'm scared to tell my family, they worry over everything. I'm scared to go to my friends about this. I'm just tired of it.