Time
Posted: Fri Mar 30, 2018 8:52 pm
Time. Time is all I have now, I’m lost in it and I can’t escape. I’m only 16 and I’ve had more pain than a grown man.
I lost my mother, my father doesn’t understand me and my brother and I hate each other.
I made so many mistakes... I trusted people I should have never trusted, I did things I will regret until the day I die, and I just hate my self. I find my self ugly, disgusting and annoying.
I have no friends, no one to rely on, No one to cry to, no one to come over my house and just listen to me rant.
I have this feeling in my stomach, it’s like this void. It’s just empty, and I feel like I’m missing something, I want to cry all the f****** time. I just go to school, go home and play video games all day just to distract me from the reality I live in.
I can’t do homework because I don’t f****** understand anything, I’m so f****** dumb.
I hate not being on my phone because then I get stuck in time, I blank out and think about every mistake and horrible moment in my pathetic life.
I hate everyone but I want someone... I don’t know how to describe this feeling, it sucks so much. No one understands what I’m going through. “Distract yourself” “you’re overreacting”
They will never understand how bad I want to die, if I wasn’t so afraid of death I would’ve killed my self so long ago..
I’m sorry..
I lost my mother, my father doesn’t understand me and my brother and I hate each other.
I made so many mistakes... I trusted people I should have never trusted, I did things I will regret until the day I die, and I just hate my self. I find my self ugly, disgusting and annoying.
I have no friends, no one to rely on, No one to cry to, no one to come over my house and just listen to me rant.
I have this feeling in my stomach, it’s like this void. It’s just empty, and I feel like I’m missing something, I want to cry all the f****** time. I just go to school, go home and play video games all day just to distract me from the reality I live in.
I can’t do homework because I don’t f****** understand anything, I’m so f****** dumb.
I hate not being on my phone because then I get stuck in time, I blank out and think about every mistake and horrible moment in my pathetic life.
I hate everyone but I want someone... I don’t know how to describe this feeling, it sucks so much. No one understands what I’m going through. “Distract yourself” “you’re overreacting”
They will never understand how bad I want to die, if I wasn’t so afraid of death I would’ve killed my self so long ago..
I’m sorry..