Hi just registered here
Posted: Sat Mar 24, 2018 2:58 pm
I've had depression for about 20 years. I was an artist my whole life but after I started on antidepressants 20 years ago I lost my creativity. I really do think it's from the medication. I was on and off antidepressants for years but then for the last 10 years or so stayed on them because I heard it was bad for my brain to have deep depressions. Last year I started feeling such terrible fatigue that I weaned off Zoloft and then weaned off Wellbutrin.
About 2 months after getting off all the antidepressants I had a surge of creativity for about 2 months and I felt like my old self again I just wanted to listen to music and paint I wasn't manic I wasn't hyper I was just myself again it was fantastic. Then it just went away and I got terribly depressed again. Had to go back on medication. now I'm on Prozac been trying different meds combos with my behavioral NP to try to find some sense of creativity and inspiration again because I realized I deserve better. But the science hasn't come far in 20 years and you have to be a guinea pig nobody seems to have any sense of what will help medication wise for one person or the other and it's very frustrating.
I'm a nurse and my job can be very stressful at times. The reason I'm writing is I'm just so sick of it all. I feel so handicapped for my depression. I see how it limits me so much in my relationships in my ability to handle stress , conflict and my lack of resiliency.
I'm 54 and it's just getting worse not better. Exercise used to help and that doesn't even help anymore just makes me more tired.... yes I've been to the doctor about all this.
I have to say the political state of our country has not helped at all. It's depressing and maddening.
I have this sense lately that I just want to burn down my life.. it's a weird feeling... I want to quit my job ..Runaway...
About 2 months after getting off all the antidepressants I had a surge of creativity for about 2 months and I felt like my old self again I just wanted to listen to music and paint I wasn't manic I wasn't hyper I was just myself again it was fantastic. Then it just went away and I got terribly depressed again. Had to go back on medication. now I'm on Prozac been trying different meds combos with my behavioral NP to try to find some sense of creativity and inspiration again because I realized I deserve better. But the science hasn't come far in 20 years and you have to be a guinea pig nobody seems to have any sense of what will help medication wise for one person or the other and it's very frustrating.
I'm a nurse and my job can be very stressful at times. The reason I'm writing is I'm just so sick of it all. I feel so handicapped for my depression. I see how it limits me so much in my relationships in my ability to handle stress , conflict and my lack of resiliency.
I'm 54 and it's just getting worse not better. Exercise used to help and that doesn't even help anymore just makes me more tired.... yes I've been to the doctor about all this.
I have to say the political state of our country has not helped at all. It's depressing and maddening.
I have this sense lately that I just want to burn down my life.. it's a weird feeling... I want to quit my job ..Runaway...