Alone
Posted: Tue Mar 20, 2018 6:37 pm
I've found that when I am alone for long periods of time (like spring or winter break and sometimes the weekends) all my 'symptoms' get 10x worse. During winter break (3 weeks off) and thanksgiving break (1 week off) I felt awful. During winter break I kept considering suicide and for the rest of January and part of February it felt like I couldn't enjoy life anymore. It felt like there was no point in doing anything. When I'm in the shower and I don't have the constant distraction that is my tablet, all I can think about is negative things. Although during school, I don't feel quite as bad. (Although my negative feelings still do persist) I guess it's because I don't have the time to sink into sadness and self hatred. Or it's because I often think how pathetic I'm being since everyone at school is doing just fine but I am the only one who can't control their emotions.
With spring and summer break coming up, I don't want to get worse. Right now I'm in a fairly good place to start talking to people about what's been going on and to (hopefully) find ways get better. Does anyone have any tips for dealing with times like these? I would also like to know if this is normal (to get worse if you are alone). Thanks.
With spring and summer break coming up, I don't want to get worse. Right now I'm in a fairly good place to start talking to people about what's been going on and to (hopefully) find ways get better. Does anyone have any tips for dealing with times like these? I would also like to know if this is normal (to get worse if you are alone). Thanks.