Tis the season
Posted: Wed Dec 20, 2017 10:41 am
Hey there, I've never really told anyone about my problems never felt like I needed to bug them with my issues. But I know there's something wrong with me espically around this time every year. I just close myself out from everyone and I don't understand why. This is supposed to be a happy time of year but I put on a face for everyone including my 5 year old daughter. I definitely try to hide it from her but she's getting smarter and knows something isn't right. I can't even go to work without hearing music and just wanting to break down. I get random and sudden urges to want to injure or harm myself just so I can feel something different but in the back of my mind I know that's not the right thing to do. I'm not sure what to do, like I want to be able to celebrate and do things without having to force myself to do them.