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Imogene11
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Finally diagnosed.

Postby Imogene11 » Fri Dec 09, 2016 9:05 pm

I've finally took the big step and put all my doubts to shame. I'm officially suffering from Major Depression. As my Doctor said it I wasn't sure if I should cry from sadness or relief. I'm sad because now that I know there's something wrong I feel helpless about actually getting better, then part of me is relieved because now I know it's not all in my head. I just really want to hear from the people of this site on how they coped with finding out there's something wrong and what their next step was.

Katjie
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Joined: Wed Nov 30, 2016 3:20 am

Re: Finally diagnosed.

Postby Katjie » Sun Dec 11, 2016 5:50 am

Hi Imogene11

I was suffering for years (from childhood until now at 42) and eventually diagnosed with Major Depression myself. With this kind you feel depressed MOSTLY of the time and life seems unbearable. Unfortunately Psychologists can't help ME, it irritates me when they just sit there and "um" and "ah" now and then without really listening to me and it costs a lot per hour for counselling. I went to psychiatrists and they have put me on different kinds of medication, some with horrible side-effects like it makes you a zombie and others make you suicidal....and I DID try to take my life a few times because of the wrong medication (for ME at least).

I suggest you take your medication and stop thinking too much of it. Please do NOT tell people (especially your bosses and co-workers) that you suffer from depression because they WILL discriminate against you, even your boyfriends and girlfriends....trust me, they will judge you and make you feel more bad of yourself. I speak of experience....not a lot of people these days know that I struggle with it and now I get to be treated normal with respect.

If you want to talk, rather talk to strangers like me and others on this site and you psychologist or psychiatrist - just to vent.

Luckily I have a great sense of humor, even if I cry inside....I look for the beauty in everything (not PERSONS because they disappoint me), I take my mobile phone outside and take random pictures of my garden of other gardens or flowers and my pets and share it with some family and discuss it rather than how I feel...I write privately my heart out in poems and put it away so that I don't see it again, maybe later when I come across it again and thinks differently about it.

Please never try suicide, you will hurt your family and yourself and life is too beautiful. There WILL be episodes that you'll feel very bad again and maybe even that it is the end of the word. Take yourself outside and sit in the sun a bit, because vitamin D makes you feel better. Take vitamin supplements for stress and try to exercise regularly to look better and feel better.

What helps the BEST for ME - crying!!! every day....afterwards you feel your feeling is done and dusted. Like I said, don't let anyone into your "mood secret"....smile to everyone in the street to get smiles back....you might just brighten another sad person's day as well.

It will not be a quick fix, but keep your dignity and your head up!!!

x0x


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