My Story
Posted: Sat Jul 16, 2016 10:26 pm
i don't know if this is depression or not. what i am is floating with no strings and no places to go; i just screw around. i used to care about grades and school and work and all of that but now it feels pointless. i don't know if i like my friends anymore. to be honest, i am just existing. sometimes i think about ending my life, but then i say, what's the point? i can either live a shitty life with no clue of what i want to do and make minimum wage at some fast food place or go to college and study God knows what for some equally crappy but probably higher paying job? and then what? get married and have kids? or die alone? i think, if i'm going to die alone i might as well do it now. but then i think, well what what if it gets better. but it doesn't get better, it just gets more exhausting. i used to think i was carefree, but now i wonder if i ever gave a f*** at all and if i ever will.