I agree with this 100%:
In thinking about the title that Star has given this thread, this returning memory came unbidden to me. I rage against this... stuff... in my head and heart. I am angry. I refuse it. But it is insidious. The trick is, for me, to find its pathways into my mind and heart. I am guarding those entrances as I find them. It works.
But there are mysteries here too. First, as you point out, we don't know where our "stuff" comes from ... The "stuff" is based on ideas and we really don't know what an "idea" is. Second, Insidious implies the "stuff" is independent of "Me". I tend to believe this ... that ideas are independent processes. For instance to not think about a pink horse all I have to do is fill my mind with a different thought, but when "I" think WHY am I thinking this different thought ... back comes the pink horse. So the pathways are something like ideas about ideas ... and guarding (for me) is to accept these ideas about ideas on faith.
For instance there was the lady who told Bertrand Russel that the universe was stuck on the back of a turtle. Bertrand asked her what the turtle was stuck on ... And she said not so fast, its turtles all the way down.
I think to have hope I need to believe that I have the power to change somethings in a postive way. When we encounter Carl Sagan's "Billions and Billions" then that power can seem so small as not to matter, but that is where I tend to believe "It's turtles all the way down.".
Another example might be I ask myself "What would make me happy right now.", and if I am depressed I think "Nothing possible", but one of my turtles is the idea to try anyway, and to reflect that trying has made a difference in the past, so it will work again.
Nenkohai2, Are there ways " you post guards" that you want to share?