I'm emotionally drained.

[Jeremy.C]

This is my first post and I'm a little shy so please bear with me. I'm 19 years old and I live in Louisiana. I have had depression since I was born, it was passed on to me by my original birth mother.(Yes I'm adopted) I had a horrible childhood, fights at school and parents fighting at home.When I reach the age of 17 I was diagnosed with Clinical depression, TMJ Disorder, Peptic Ulcer, Anxiety and Sleep Disorder. Over the past 2 years I have had 76 different medications ranging from anti-depresents, anti-anxiety,tranquilizer, blood thinners and beta blockers. I have been under a clinical trial to understand why in one week of taking the meds I grow a tolerances.

I feel dead inside, cold, lonely and depressed. I don't drink, smoke or do drugs. I never had a thought of suicide but just a urge of just laying in a relax sleep. I haven't cried since I was seven because I see no use in it.
I'm tired, my friends see me as the person who always is tring to help someone.I am now a college student but I'm not happy because I'm working too hard and I see no happiness. I have never had one single day of happiness in my life. I don't know what to do anymore.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((((((( Jeremy.C )))))))))))))))))))))

Thank you for sharing. I truly hope that you will find the support you seek here in the forums. There is a chat room connected with this forum, should you want to go in, talk, vent, meet people that deal with issue in life as you do.

Warmie