I was the lonely one

[Porthletics]

You should be familiar with that "one kid in your class that never talks" kind of person. I was very much this kind of person throughout my school years. I never exactly found out why I was so heavily ignored, but none of the less, this went on for over a decade. You can imagine how much that would effect me mentally, but to make it worse, during this point occurred various traumatic events, including: Parents divorce, someone threatening my brother's life in front of me at an early age, regularly occuring sleep-related seizures with a slew of uncomfortable symptoms, the death of pets and loved ones, and a horse coming close to killing me. All of this combined with crushing loneliness and complete lack of treatment, made me severely depressed for an extended period at age 11-12, and again years later, starting a couple months ago until now, both times with serious suicidal thoughts, none of which I ever attempted thankfully.

[j2415]

Hello,
I’m very sorry to hear about your struggles. Have you tried to seek professional counselling? I hope you can get the help you need to feel better.

Please feel comfortable to post here in the forum, I hope it will bring you relief as you talk about how you feel. May God’s peace and comfort be upon you, please stay strong. Keep us posted. God bless.